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SUMMER SHOW SCHEDULE

September 7th

The Adventures of Froggy March- Christopher Harris- audio podcast



SEPTEMBER 14th- SEASON 4 BEGINS WITH ALL NEW SHOWS


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WELCOME and LIT103.3; fiction for the ears NAVIGATION INSTRUCTIONS

Welcome to Lit.103.3; fiction for the ears. My name is Alan Vogel, your host and reader.

Lit103.3; fiction for the ears is broadcast on WXOJ LP, 103.3 on your FM dial every Tuesday at 1:00 PM. The show also streams on the web at www.valleyfreeradio.org.

Each week I’ll read a short story or two, play some music; stories that gain emotional power from the music, talk about writing, publishing, even film. Perhaps the show should be called CompLit103.3. But we'll leave it as it is for now.

ALL OF THE WRITTEN VERSIONS OF THE STORIES, AS WELL AS THE PODCASTS, ARE LOCATED IN THE "MONTHLY ARCHIVE" SECTION TO THE RIGHT, JUST ABOVE "RECENT ENTRIES." TO VIEW THEM, SIMPLY CLICK ON THE WORDS, "FEBRUARY 2008." For purposes of positioning, I've altered the dates that stories or podcasts were published on the website, so the listed dates are absolutely inaccurate and irrelevant for anything but  placement. You can also use Quicksearch located on the top right, or simply scroll down to read or play entries.

For overall convenience, you can listen to any or all the podcasts by pressing any blue link or the"launch player" to launch the media player. The media player will allow you to move through all the shows by pressing the forward or back arrows that appear as you listen to a selection.

Click on any of the"recent entries", "archives," or on the blue highlighted title above the audio or written version of the story to isolate a particular story or podcast. In the case of a story it will appear in a format that allows for convenient printing.

You can also listen to the podcast by clicking on the underlined word "download" just under the arrow for the audio bar.

Or you can listen by clicking on the arrow of the audio bar.
The audio bar should move from left to right as you listen. If you see the bar at the far right and the audio won't play, either refresh your screen, or close your browser window, then reopen it, and perhaps again refresh your screen if you need to. I hope you suffer no inconvenience. Please contact me if you do.



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SUBMISSION GUIDELINES

SUBMISSIONS: Any genre, or none at all. Please submit to lit103.3@comcast.net. DO NOT SEND ATTACHMENTS, rather, include your story in the body of your email.Please place the word count of the story on the first page. Also, provide any biographical or relevant material you'd like read before or after the broadcast in the event your story is selected for airing. If chosen, the story will appear here on the site in written form, and as a podcast.

I look forward to reading your stories as well as your thoughts and comments here at the website.

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DUMB BEASTS by Clea Simon- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:01



June 1st, June 22nd and July 13th- Dumb Beasts by Clea Simon
as well as some comments on Aloft by Chang-Rae
Lee, Solar by Ian McEwan and some "animal music."

Clea Simon is the Cambridge, Mass., based author of such mysteries as Grey Matters and Probable Claws. Pru Marlowe, the bad-girl animal psychic introduced in "Dumb Beasts," will make her full-length debut in the mystery Dogs Don't Lie, the first in her "pet noir" series set in a fictional Western Mass. town, to  be published in April, 2011, by Poisoned Pen Press. You can read more at www.cleasimon.com

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Circulation by Pat Remick- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:03


Pat Remick is an award-winning short story author and veteran journalist, and has co-authored two non-fiction books. She is 2010 president of Sisters in Crime New England, co-chair of the Nov. 12-14, 2010, New England Crime Bake conference for mystery writers and readers, and a member of Mystery Writers of America. Her short stories have appeared in anthologies and she is working on a novel. Pat blogs at PatRemick.blogspot.com and at workingstiffs.blogspot.com. Her web site is www.PatRemick.com



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'Twas The Night by Anita Page and Confessions of a Good Mother by Ray Daniel- podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:59:38


'Twas The Night by Anita Page

AnitaPage's short stories have appeared in The Prosecution Rests (Little,Brown), Murder New York Style (L&L Dreamspell), Word Riot,Mysterical-e, Mouth Full of Bullets, Ball State University Forum,Jewish Horizons, and Heresies. She recently completed a darktraditional mystery set in the Catskills featuring Hannah Fox and JackGrundy, who make guest appearances in "'Twas the Night," published lastfall in The Gift of Murder (Wolfmont Press). She lives in New York'sMid-Hudson Valley.

                                                 as well as

Confessions of a Good Mother by Ray Daniel

Born and bred in the Boston Area, Ray Daniel lives in the high-tech
belt West of Boston where he writes and works on reforming his Boston accent.





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Time Will Tell by Twist Phelan - podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:58:43



“Time Will Tell” by Twist Phelan is included in this year’s Mystery Writers of America anthology, THE PROSECUTION RESTS (Little, Brown), edited by Linda Fairstein.

A popular writer here at Lit103.3; fiction for the ears, Twist Phelan, aformer attorney as well as sportsperson, submitted "Time Will Tell",together with a note addressing some of her thoughts on craft duringthe writing of the story. I'll summarize those thoughts

as well as

spend a minute or three talking about the Massachusetts election of Republican Scott Brown and the growing ahistorical perspective ofAmerican politics, the media and Americans in general.


* I apologize to listeners. On two occasions during the broadcastI referred to Richard Powers (author of Gain), as Thomas Powers. Also, when I referred to Corporations not existing at the time of the founding of the country, I meant as they exist today.





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The Flourine Murder by Camille Minichino - podcast version


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THE FLOURINE MURDER by CAMILLE MINICHINIO

Camille Minichino has published eight novels in the periodic table mystery series. She received her Ph.D. in physics from Fordham University, New York City. Her new series, The Miniature Mysteries, is based on her life long miniatures hobby. She has had a long career in research,teaching, and writing. She is currently on the faculty of Golden Gate University, San Francisco and on the staff of Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory. Camille is on the Board of the California Writers Club and NorCal Sisters in Crime.


As well as some discussion of the multiple arson that took place on December 27th in Northampton MA.

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Periodic Table and Seeing Ghosts by Karen Condon as well as a discussion of The Local a film by Dan Eberle


Download | Duration: 01:00:03



Karen Condon's story, "Periodic Table" was in an anthology called "Awake: A Reader for the Sleepless", edited by Steven Beeber from Soft Skull Press. Karen Condon received her MFA in creative writing at the University of Massachusetts, Amherst in 1993, and has written a novel and two short story collections. Her stories have appeared in The Iowa Review, Bottomfish Magazine, Sonora Review, Kansas Quarterly, Arkansas Review, Antigonish Review, and Fiddlehead.

She wrote the stories in Are You a Survivor during and after her treatment for breast cancer in 2001 and 2002. The title refers to a question she was asked at a breast cancer support group theday after her diagnosis. She lives in Springfield, Massachusetts.
Brown Street Press is proud to release Karen's novel, Are you a Survivor?. It will go on sale in November 1st 2008.


                                   
The Local, was an official selection of the Brooklyn International Film Festival and was released in October 2009. Dan Eberle, an independent filmmaker, wrote, directed and starred in the film. He has also made Vicissitudes (2004) and JailCity (2006)

I failed to note during the program that I tend not to talk about plot when speaking of books or movies for the reason that it's important to me that I view a movie or read a book as a blank slate without prior lnowledge and want to allow listeners the same privilege.




    
    

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Happily Ever After & The Crash - Alan Vogel- audio podcast

This podcast contains explicit content | Download | Duration: 01:02:20



   

    Alan Vogel is the creator of, and reader for Lit103.3. Alan practiced law for many years at a firm he founded in Bridgeport, Connecticut. Since leaving the legal field, again a human being, he spends time writing short stories and novels and, of course, producing and broadcasting Lit103.3; fiction for the ears.

NOTE:

While I monitored the reading of these stories during the radio broadcast I noticed that although the subject matter, content, and tone of the stories are quite different, they nonetheless share themes of loss and responsibility. After a story is complete and out of a writer's day to day life, he or she re-approaches it not as a writer,but a reader, and often sees things that weren't conscious decisions while writing. Very interesting part of the process.


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Thoughts About My Father; a slice of memoir- by Bill Childs and No Easy Way Out by Dan Krokos- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:01



Bill Childs is aProfessor of Law and Assistant Dean at Western New England College ofLaw as well as host, together with his daughter Ella and son Liam of"Spare The Rock and Spoil the Child" broadcast on WXOJ 103.3 FM as wellas WRSI  "The River" at 93.9 FM, both stations broadcasting fromNorthampton, Massachusetts, and both shows airing on Saturdays.

and

The Easy Way Out by Dan Krokos

Dan Krokos is a 23 year old student of English who also works in a gas station and writes crime novels.

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Death Will Trim Your Tree by Elizabeth Zelvin- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:01



"Death Will Trim YourTree" appears in the holiday crime anthology THE GIFT OF MURDER, editedby John Floyd and published by Wolfmont Press to benefit the Toys forTots Foundation. ELIZABETH ZELVIN's new mystery, DEATH WILL HELP YOULEAVE HIM is in stores now.
Protagonist,recovering alcoholic Bruce Kohler, alsoplays the lead in ElizabethZelvin's debut mystery novel from St.Martin's, DEATH WILL GET YOUSOBER. Zelvin is a New York psychotherapist who ran alcoholtreatmentprograms

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Lucky Is Another Country by Larry Sweazy- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:25


Larry D. Sweazy is the author of the Josiah Wolfe, Texas Ranger (Berkley) series, and of more than 40 short stories, non-fiction articles, and poems.  His first professionally published short story, "The Promotion", won the 2005 Spur award for Best Short Fiction, and appeared in The Best Short Mysteries of 2005 anthology (The Adventure of the Missing Detective: And 25 of the Year's Best Crime and Mystery Stories (Carroll & Graf), edited by Ed Gorman and Martin H. Greenberg. His other short stories have appeared in, or will appear in, Boy's Life, Ellery Queen Mystery Magazine, Amazon Shorts, Hardboiled, Terminal Fright, and other anthologies and magazines. He currently lives in Noblesville, Indiana, with his wife Rose, two dogs and a cat.

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Common Sense by Ben Malisow - podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:59:45



Ben Malisow-  Ben Malisow has been an Air Force officer, an actor, a journalist, a schoolteacher, a college professor, and a security consultant, among other things. His first book1,001 Things To Do If You Dare was published by Adams Media in 2007, and his second Terrorism, from Chelsea House/Facts on File, came out in2008. You can find him on line at www.benmalisow.com.

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Time Tracker by G. Miki Hayden podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:59:13



G. Miki Hayden’s, The Maids, which played on this show last year won the 2004 Edgar Award for best mystery short story. The written version of this story is nowavailable in a story format for Sony Reader.

In our premier year she contributed her story, Rock on Rock to the show, the written version of which is still in our archives.

Miki is also the author of The Naked Writer, a comprehensive style and composition book for all levels of writers, as well as
her intructional, "Writing the Mystery," which was also nominated for three awards.

Miki is available for private coaching at Ghayden2@nyc.rr.com, but also teaches at Writer’s Digest online.



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When In Rome by Dorothy Francis and Get Yourself a Face by Gail Farrelly - podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:00



Dorothy Francis writes mystery shortstories and novels from her home studios in Iowa and the Florida Keys. She is a member of Mystery Writers of America, Sisters in Crime,Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators, Short MysteryFiction Society.  Her latest novel, EDEN PALMS MURDER is now availableat libraries and book stories. This story won a Derringer Award in 1999awarded by the Short Mystery Fiction Society.


Gail Farrellywrites mystery novels, articles about the mystery field, and Op-Eds. She also publishes satire pieces (Gail Farrelly's satire and parodystories) on TheSpoof.com, a British website.  Her first mystery, BeanedIn Boston: Murder at a Finance Convention,  was named to the WashingtonIrving Book Selection List.  Gail's other books are Duped ByDerivatives: A Manhattan Murder and Creamed at Commencement: AGraduation Mystery.  She's working on a fourth mystery, The VirtualHeiress.  Gail shares a website (www.FarrellySistersOnline.com) withher sister Rita, also a mystery writer; first chapters of the Farrellymysteries are available on the website.
   

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The Murder Cache by Beth Groundwater- podcast version

Download | Duration: 00:59:39



Beth Groundwater's first mystery novel, A REAL BASKET CASE, was published in March, 2007 and was nominated for a Best First Novel Agatha Award. The second in the Claire Hanover gift basket designer series, TO HELL IN A HANDBASKET, was just released this May. It is set in Breckenridge, CO and opens with a death on the ski slope. As Kirkus Review said, "Groundwater's second leaves the bunny slope behind, offering some genuine black-diamond thrills." Between writing spurts, Beth defends her garden from marauding mule deer and wild rabbits and tries to avoid getting black-and-blue on the black and blue ski slopes of Colorado. Please visit her website at bethgroundwater.com/ . "The Murder Cache" first appeared in The Map of Murder anthology, published February, 2007. This anthology was an Award-Winner in the Short Story Fiction category of the National Indie Excellence 2007 Book Awards.

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Beth Groundwater, bethgroundwater.com/
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REAL BASKET CASE, Five Star, 3/2007, Best First Novel Agatha Nominee
TO HELL IN A HANDBASKET, Five Star, May 2009

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STICKERS by Daniel Scott - podcast version as read by Walter Mantani


Download | Duration: 00:58:21



Daniel Scott has authored twoshort-story collections, Some of Us have to Get Up in the Morning andPay This Amount. HIs work has also appeared or is forthcoming in manynational and international magazines including StoryQuarterly, TheSouthern Anthology, River Oak Review, The Dublin Quarterly, ClockwatchReview, Quercus Review, Confrontation, Press and Berkeley FictionReview.  He is the recipient of an Artists’ Fellowship from the NewYork Foundation for the Arts as well as a Ludwig Vogelstein FoundationGrant, a Millay Colony for the Arts Residency and two MacDowell ColonyFellowships. A Massachusetts native, He now lives in New York. Daniel can be reached at www.danielscottonline.com

Guestreader Walter Mantani is co-host of the Valley Free Radio show,"Shootin' From The Hip," every Monday at 1:00 PM on WXOJ-LP  FM 103.3Northampton, MA.

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A Stab in the Heart by Twist Phelan- podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:59:57



A retired trial lawyer and former commodities trader, Twist Phelan writes the critically-acclaimed Pinnacle Peak series, legal-themed mysteries featuring endurance sports. Her latest book, FALSE FORTUNE (Poisoned Pen Press), was a Rocky Award finalist. In researching her books, Twist has paddled the open ocean, bicycled across the country, and roped steers. But she's still scared to light the barbecue.

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Lenny in Love by Steven Wander and Beleaguered by Ben Malisow- podcast


Download | Duration: 01:00:28



March 31st and April 7th - LENNY IN LOVE by Steven Wander and BELEAGUERED by Ben Malisow

StevenWander- Steven H. Wander, currently an adjunct professor of Art Historyat the University of Connecticut, Stamford was formerly assistantprofessor and chair of the Art History department at the University ofCalifornia, Irvine, from 1976-80.  Between then and now he ran thefamily jewelry business with branches in New York, Paris, France andTexas.  The short story is the opening chapter of a novel based on theevents of December 5, 1991 when his safe was burglarized, and thethieves made off with hundreds of thousands of dollars of jewelry(insured).  The novel was accepted for publication, but contract issuesprevented its appearance.
 
He was educated at the University ofCalifornia, Berkeley and received his doctorate from StanfordUniversity.  In addition to the two novels he has written, the second athriller about the True Cross, entitled Cross, Double Cross, hispublications consist of scholarly articles on the Cyprus Plates, whichare currently displayed at the Metropolitan Museum in New Yorkaccording to his proposed arrangement, Westminster Abbey, the YorkMinster Chapter House, and Wenceslaus Hollar’s engravings of the tombsof Old St. Paul’s, London.  His current project is a full-lengthreevaluation of the Joshua Roll, a tenth-century Byzantine manuscriptabout which he recently spoke at Oxford University.

ProfessorWander has been the recipient of a Fulbright-Hays Grant for GraduateStudy Abroad to the Courtauld Institute of Art in 1973-74,  the UCLACenter for Medieval and Renaissance Studies Annual Award in 1975, anAmerican Council of Learned Societies Grant-in-aid for RecentRecipients of the PhD in 1977, and in 2006 he was a member of theNational Endowment for the Humanities Summer Seminar, Trajan’s Column:Narratives of War, Civilization, and Commemoration in the Roman Empireat the American Academy in Rome.


BenMalisow-  Ben Malisow has been an Air Force officer, an actor, ajournalist, a schoolteacher, a college professor, and a securityconsultant, among other things. His first book 1,001 Things To Do IfYou Dare was published by Adams Media in 2007, and his secondTerrorism, from Chelsea House/Facts on File, came out in 2008. You can find him onlineat www.benmalisow.com. And his dad is a really nice guy.


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Mercy 101 by Pat Remick - podcast version


Download | Duration: 00:59:57



Award-winning mystery short story writer Pat Remick also is a national freelance journalist, New Hampshire municipal employee working on a statewide tax issue, non-fiction author and veteran news reporter. Her short story “Mercy 101” won the prestigious Al Blanchard Award in 2007 and was published in ““Still Waters: Crime Stories by New England Writers.” Her story “Circulation” is part of the 2008 New England anthology “Deadfall” out this November. She is working on a mystery novel tentatively titled “Murder Most Municipal.”
 
Pat co-authored two professional development books with husband and fellow mystery writer Frank Cook, the most recent being "21 Things Every Future Engineer Should Know." Over the years, she has worked for such news outlets as United Press International, CNN, AARP Bulletin, Discovery.com, n ewspapers and newsletters.
 
Pat is a member of Mystery Writers of America and Sisters in Crime. She and Frank live in Portsmouth, NH, with their two sons. Her often humorous blog, PatRemick.blogspot.com, is called “It’s All Novel Material.”  www.PatRemick.com
 

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Triple Header- Colin Campbell- podcast version

                 

Download | Duration: 01:00:01




Read By Valley Free Radio's own star of "The NighClub with his wife Linda Kennedy, as well as Match of the Day, perhaps the only show dedicated to soccor in the greater Western Massachusetts Northampton area. Eddie hails, as does author Colin Campbell from England

Author Colin Campbell:
Ex-policeman.  Ex-soldier.  International tennis player.  And full-time crime writer.    Author of twelve novels and a novella Colin Campbell has also written numerous short stories and is a retired police officer in West Yorkshire, having tackled crime on the streets of one of the UK’s busiest cities for 30 years.

Four books have been published in the UK, one of which is being adapted for TV as a two-hour drama.  He counts Lee Child, Reginald Hill, Caroline Carver, and Stephen Booth among his fans.

And he is currently world doubles champion (over 50s) at the World Police/Fire Games 2007 in Adelaide.

PUBLISHED WORK

•    DARKWATER TOWERS.  Blackie & Co Publishers.
•    THROUGH THE RUINS OF MIDNIGHT.  Pen Press.
•    BALLAD OF THE ONE LEGGED MAN.  Pen Press.
•    GARGOYLES – SKYLIGHTS AND ROOFSCAPES.  Pen Press.



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The Apprentice Assassin by A. P. Littlewood, Those Stepford Guys by Winifred Seery, Marys Ribbon and Aunt Agnes Comes for A while by Pamela Tyree Griffin- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:03

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YOUR SWEET MAN by Libby Hellmann podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:07



YOUR SWEET MAN by Libby Hellmann. Libby Hellmann has published over 12 short stories, and edited the acclaimed crime fiction anthology, CHICAGO BLUES, which was released in October, 2007 by Bleak House Books. She served as National president of Sisters in Crime, and was president of the Midwest Mystery Writers of America chapter. Your Sweet Man was included in that anthology. Libby has published five novels in the The Ellie Foreman series, the latest of which is Easy Innocence. In hard cover through Poisoned Pen Press and in paperback through Berkley Prime Crime. Learn more at her website www.libbyhellmann.com        
A transplant from Washington, D.C., Libby has lived in the Chicago area thirty years. When not writing fiction, she conducts executive training programs in presentation skills, speech delivery, and media interviews. She also writes video scripts, articles, and speeches. She holds a BA from the University of Pennsylvania and an MFA in Film Production from New York University. After an eight year stint in television news, including PBS and NBC, she spent eight years at Burson-Marsteller, the large public relations firm.

Libby lives on the North Shore of Chicago with her family. Sadly, her Beagle, shamelessly named Shiloh, recently passed on. She is represented by the Ann Rittenberg Literary Agency.-

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Word of Mouth by Stephen Rogers and and The Runt by Daniel Scott- podcast version


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WORD OF MOUTH by Stephen Rogers appeared in HandHeldCrime, Feb 2002. Over five hundred of Stephen's stories and poems have been selected to appear in more than two hundred publications.His website, www.stephendrogers.com, includes a list of new and upcoming titles as well as other timely information.
 




RUNT by Daniel Scott has authored two short-story collections, Some of Us have to Get Up in the Morning and Pay This Amount. HIs work has also appeared or is forthcoming in many national and international magazines including StoryQuarterly, The Southern Anthology, River Oak Review, The Dublin Quarterly, Clockwatch Review, Quercus Review, Confrontation, Press and Berkeley Fiction Review.  He is the recipient of an Artists’ Fellowship from the New York Foundation for the Arts as well as a Ludwig Vogelstein Foundation Grant, a Millay Colony for the Arts Residency and two MacDowell Colony Fellowships. A Massachusetts native, He now lives in New York. Daniel can be reached at www.danielscottonline.com

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The Maids by G. Miki Hayden- podcast version


Download | Duration: 01:00:15



G. Miki Hayden’s, The Maids, won the 2004 Edgar Award for best mystery short story. Last year she contributed her story, Rock on Rock to the show, which can be found in our archives. Miki is also the author of The Naked Writer, a comprehensive style and composition book for all levels of writers, as well as her instructional, "Writing the Mystery," which was also nominated for three awards.

Miki is available for private coaching at Ghayden2@nyc.rr.com, but also teaches at Writer’s Digest online. 

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Shoulders by Colin Campbell and Vendetta Olympics by Daniel Tomasulo- podcast version

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Shoulders by Colin Campbell- Ex-policeman.  Ex-soldier.  International tennis player.  And full-time crime writer.    Author of twelve novels and a novella Colin Campbell has also written numerous short stories and is a retired police officer in West Yorkshire, having tackled crime on the streets of one of the UK’s busiest cities for 30 years.

Four books have been published in the UK, one of which is being adapted for TV as a two-hour drama.  He counts Lee Child, Reginald Hill, Caroline Carver, and Stephen Booth among his fans.

And he is currently world doubles champion (over 50s) at the World Police/Fire Games 2007 in Adelaide.

PUBLISHED WORK

•    DARKWATER TOWERS.  Blackie & Co Publishers.
•    THROUGH THE RUINS OF MIDNIGHT.  Pen Press.
•    BALLAD OF THE ONE LEGGED MAN.  Pen Press.
•    GARGOYLES – SKYLIGHTS AND ROOFSCAPES.  Pen Press.




Vendetta Olympics by Daniel Tomasulo- Dan Tomasulo is a licensed psychologist and psychodrama trainer in Red Bank, New Jersey, and a former a visiting faculty member on fellowship at Princeton University. His first popular –press debut, Confessions of a Former Child:  A Therapist’s Memoir was published earlier this year. Kirkus Reviews called it “Disquietingly funny, stuffed with entertaining details and penetrating insights.” 
 
Dr. Tomasulo is a former stand-up comic and comedy writer, and the first psychologist to be honored with the Statewide Healthcare Provider Award by the ARC of New Jersey.  He has an MFA from the New School in New York City, and is also co-author of Healing Trauma: The Power of Group Treatment for People with Intellectual Disabilities, the American Psychological Association’s first book on psychotherapy for people with Intellectual disabilities.

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Lily-Ray by Karen Condon and Only Child by Jennifer Bouchard- podcast version

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Lily-Ray by Karen Condon - Karen Condon received her MFA in creative writing at the University of Massachusetts, Amherst in 1993, and has written a novel and two short story collections. Her stories have appeared in The Iowa Review, Bottomfish Magazine, Sonora Review, Kansas Quarterly, Arkansas Review, Antigonish Review, and Fiddlehead.

She wrote the stories in Are You a Survivor during and after her treatment for breast cancer in 2001 and 2002. The title refers to a question she was asked at a breast cancer support group the day after her diagnosis. She lives in Springfield, Massachusetts.

Brown Street Press is proud to release Karen's novel, Are you a Survivor?. It will go on sale in November 1st 2008.
         
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Only Child by Jennifer Bouchard - Jennifer Bouchard is a writer and high school English teacher. She has
written numerous articles on education and literature for EBSCO Publishing. Her work also has appeared in the Christian Science Monitor. She received a B.A. in English from the University of Massachusetts, Amherst, an M.Ed.in English from Framingham State College, and is currently pursuing an M.F.A in Professional Writing at Western Connecticut State University. She lives in Western Massachusetts with her husband and daughter.

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Lovers Only, Friends Optional by Lisa Smith-Overton podcast version

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Lisa Smith-Overton is a freelance writer and photographer published in both fiction and non-fiction.  Her short story, The Travels of Mary Magdalene won the short story prize in the 2006 CT State University System Fiction and Poetry Contest and was published in the Connecticut Review.  A graduate of Eastern Connecticut State University, she is currently a graduate student in the Master of Fine Arts program in professional writing at Western Connecticut State University.

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The Last Pork Chop by Bayard- audio podcast version

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Bayard has had 150 stories published in the last 10 years in dozens of literary magazines. Bayard has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize 9 times, and is the editor of a literary magazine entitled Happy. Bayard is also visual artist of note, with sculptural pieces in major private and corporate collections, and is currently represented by Schroder-Romero in New York and GV Art in London. He has recently been an artist-in-residence at the Warhol Museum in Pittsburgh and was featured in Contemporary Textiles.

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SYLVIE HAS GONE TO THE DELI by Elizabeth Esse Kahrs- WEB ONLY PODCAST DUE TO EXPLICIT CONTENT

This podcast contains explicit content | Download | Duration: 00:20:24





Elizabeth Esse Kahrs is a freelance journalist and fiction writer. She has been a columnist for Parent and Kids/Boston for the past six years. An excerpt from her novel, The Trouble in My Mirror, appeared in the Fearless Voices section of the The Huffington Post. You can find more of her work in The Boston Globe, the Baby Journal, Static Movement, and Shine. Elizabeth graduated from Lafayette College with a Bachelors degree in Psychology. A native of suburban New York, she lives with her husband and two children on Boston’s South Shore. The Trouble in My Mirror is her first novel.

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Music Show Special

            
STORIES IN SONG- The ground rules are this: listen to the lyrics and let the music add emotional power to the story. A special show to kick off the second season of Lit103.3; fiction for the ears.
         

Download | Duration: 01:00:03

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Death Will Clean Your Closet by Elizabeth Zelvin and A Trader's Lot by Twist Phelan- audio podcast

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"Death Will Clean Your Closet" first appeared in the anthology MURDER NEW YORK STYLE (L&L Dreamspell 2007) and was a 2007 Agatha nominee for Best Short Story. Its protagonist, recovering alcoholic Bruce Kohler, also plays the lead in Elizabeth Zelvin's debut mystery novel from St. Martin's, DEATH WILL GET YOU SOBER. DEATH WILL GET YOU SOBER is the first in a series, came out on April 15, and is in stores and online bookstores now. Zelvin is a New York psychotherapist who ran alcohol treatment programs
                                            

A Trader's Lot, originally appeared in the crime fiction anthology WALL STREET NOIR. Called a standout in Publishers Weekly's starred review, the story was just named a finalist for the Derringer Award from the Short Mystery Fiction Society. A retired trial lawyer and former commodities trader, Twist Phelan writes the critically-acclaimed Pinnacle Peak series, legal-themed mysteries featuring endurance sports. Her latest book, FALSE FORTUNE (Poisoned Pen Press), was a Rocky Award finalist. In researching her books, Twist has paddled the open ocean, bicycled across the country, and roped steers. But she's still scared to light the barbecue.



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Counterflow by Bill Cameron & The True and Real History of Elspeth and the Indian Wars by Adam Novitt- audio podcast

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Bill Cameron lives with his wife and a menagerie of critters in Portland, Oregon. He's an eager traveler and avid bird-watcher, and likes to write near a window so he can meditate on whatever happens to fly by during intractable passages. His stories have appeared in Spinetingler, The Dunes Review, The Alsop Review, and in KILLER YEAR, edited by Lee Child. LOST DOG, his debut suspense novel, is available from Midnight Ink Books. His second novel, CHASING SMOKE, will be available Fall 2008 from Bleak House Books. He is currently at work on his third novel. Bill a member of Friends of Mystery and International Thriller Writers, and serves as Vice President of the Northwest Chapter of the Mystery Writers of America

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Adam Novitt is a librarian at Forbes Library. He lives in Northampton, MA where he keeps bees and chickens in his backyard. He is an accomplished motorcyclist and bicyclist and is engaged to be married to Priscilla Miner.

Adam has been to Greenland.

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Juggling & So Small by Barbara Sosman- audio podcast

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Barbara Sosman has an MFA in fiction and nonfiction from Vermont College, as well as a BA in English from the University of Connecticut. Her short story "Juggling" won FIRST PRIZE in the 2004 Raymond Carver Short Story Contest sponsored by Humboldt State University and is being published in the spring 2005 issue of Toyon. Her short story "Ashes" was published in the spring 2003 Louisville Review, and another short story, "Me and Grace," was a prizewinner in the 2003 Fiction Competition sponsored by The Ledge, and published in The Ledge #27.

She has been adjunct professor of English at Western Connecticut State University and is Contributing Editor to the literary journal Hunger Mountain. She has been a teacher, journalist, and writer and editor for numerous textbook programs for Harcourt, Harper & Row, MacMillan, Scott Foresman and others; she also was Senior Editor in language arts for Noble and Noble, the textbook publishing arm of Dell Publishing.  She lives in Bangor, Maine and teaches English at Eastern Maine Community College where she is working on a memoir.

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Building An Elephant by Sean Ferrell- audio podcast



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               Sean Ferrill lives and works in New York City. He's been published by the Adirondack Review, Cafe Irreal, Uber, Words, and Bossa Nova Ink. He's currently working on a novel.

"Building An Elephant," won the Fulton Prize from the Adirondack Review. Sean is honored by the prize and asked if I would include their link, adirondackreview.homestead.com , which I, of course, am happy to do.

Sean's website is www.byseanferrell.com


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Rock on Rock by G. Miki Hayden, & How I Became My Father by A.S. King- audio podcast

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Short story Edgar winner, G. Miki Hayden was also nominated for three awards for her instructional, "Writing the Mystery." Her latest book out is "The Naked Writer," a comprehensive style and composition book for every level of writer- produced after years of working with talented but erring students.

A. S. King is a novelist recently relocated from Ireland. This story, "How I Became My Father," was a finalist for a Glimmer Train Award in 2007.  Her work has appeared in Washington Square, Word Riot, Literary Mama, FRiGG, Eclectica, Amarillo Bay, Underground Voices, The Huffington Post, The Arabesques Review, Natural Bridge and other cool places. One of her novels, The Dust of 100 Dogs, is due from Flux in February 2009.


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Rat by Trey Barker, HH & Roger Fine by Anne Le Prade - audio podcast

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Anne LaPrade is a visual artist who lives in Western Massachusetts. She was born in Massachusetts and lived in Europe from age 18 - 35. She has a BA English, and an MFA Visual Arts. She'll be off to Romania (for the first time) for artists residency this summer, 2008.


Trey Barker'snovel, 2000 MILES TO NOWHERE is available from Five Star Press. Treyhas published fiction is just about every genre imaginable; from crimeto mystery, horror to science fiction, traditional western to fantasy,historical, mainstream and poetry, as well as hundreds of non- fictionarticles. Once a journalist, as well as a karaoke salesman, dollassembler, and pizza cook, Barker is now a deputy in the bureau CountySheriff's Office in Illinois.   


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Lost In The Water- Trey Barker- audio podcast

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Trey Barker's novel, 2000 MILES TO NOWHERE is available from Five Star Press. Trey has published fiction is just about every genre imaginable; from crime to nystery, horror to science fiction, traditional western to fantasy, historical, mainstream and poetry, as well as hundreds of non- fiction articles. Once a journalist, aswel as a karaoke salesman, doll assembler, and pizza cook, Barker is now a deputy in the bureau COunty Sheriff's Office in Illinois.  


                                                           

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The Adventures of Froggy March- Christopher Harris- audio podcast

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Christopher Harris is a graduate of the University of Massachusetts graduate writing program. "The Rembrandts" was published in Washington Square, the journal of New York Unversity, and also read by Christopher at a Washington Square forum. He has also had work recently published in News From The Republic of Letters, the literary journal of Boston University, and LIT,The New School's literary journal. He lives in Amherst Massachusetts, and has a day job working for ESPN.com and appearing on TV for ESPN.    


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The Rembrandts- Christopher Harris- audio podcast

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Christopher Harris is a graduate of the University of Massachusetts graduate writing program. "The Rembrandts" was published in Washington Square, the journal of New York Unversity, and also read by Christopher at a Washington Square forum. He has also had work recently published in News From The Republic of Letters, the literary journal of Boston University, and LIT,The New School's literary journal. He lives in Amherst Massachusetts, and has a day job working for ESPN.com and appearing on TV for ESPN.    

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A Long To Die- Dave Zeltserman- audio podcast

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About Dave Zeltserman: Dave’s short crime fiction has been published in many venues, including Alfred Hitchcock’s Mystery Magazine and Ellery Queen’s Mystery Magazine, with his story, More Than a Scam, receiving honorable mention in the 2003 Best American Mystery Stories anthology. Dave’s first crime novel, Fast Lane, was published in 2004 and was picked by Poisoned Pen Bookstore as one of the top hardboiled novels of the year. His second novel, Bad Thoughts, was published in 2007 and called “A compellingly clever wheels-within-wheels thriller. An ingenious plot, skillfully executed.” by Booklist. The UK publisher, Serpent’s Tail, will be publishing his next three crime noir novels, with the first of them, Small Crimes, due out March 20, 2008.

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Sans Farine- Jim Shepard, January 22,2008- audio podcast

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DUMB BEASTS by Clea Simon- written version

Clea Simon
"Cries & Whiskers"
"Probable Claws," April '09
"Shades of Grey," Sept. '09
www.cleasimon.com


                                                            Dumb Beasts


    I really didn’t want to go over when Mrs. M. called. Sheila, as I think of her. With most people I’m on a first-name basis immediately. They’ve invited me into their homes, into some of their most intimate relationships, after all. It only makes sense. But not her. We were introduced formally the first time I came over, but although I immediately reached out, saying, “It’s Beth. Please, call me Beth,” she never reciprocated.
    Her husband’s another sort entirely. I think it was his idea to call me the first time. At any rate,  he was the one who cared, who wanted everyone to get along. She might’ve complained about the noise, though. I wouldn’t have put that past her.
    It was a compatibility issue, that first time. The dog had been hers originally, a yappy little Yorkshire terrier, spoiled and insecure. More of a fashion accessory than a companion, I figured, them both being blondes and all. The Yorkie had been understandably unsettled when they had moved into his townhouse. The presence of his pets – a cat, a parrot, an aquarium full of fish – didn’t help the Yorkie’s mood, and, to be fair, the cat – an elderly Persian – hadn’t made it any easier. But I think they would have worked it out. Animals do. She was the problem. Couldn’t stand the barking, the hissing, the squawking. I tried to tell her it was all part of the change, everybody finding their new place in the social order. She was having none of it. I thought that what really got her was Bridget’s betrayal. Bridget – that’s the Yorkie – took to Paul right away. I try to keep my feelings out of it. I’m not here for the people anyway. It’s all about the animals. That’s why I came over when she called.
    Paul was away again. Traveling. I don’t know what he did. Whatever it was, it kept him on the road, but it sure was profitable. I figured the animals missed him. They do, you know, and not just in that obsessive-grooming, separation-anxiety neurotic way. They become used to us, as we do to them.
    “Dumb animals,” she said. She didn’t get it, never had, if Bridget’s rapid defection was any clue. Didn’t realize that “dumb” in that context means unable to speak, not stupid. Not that she tried to listen. She was colder than those fish, if you ask me. But then, she didn’t want my opinion so I held my tongue. She wasn’t really the client.
    They were, and I find I do best if I keep my mind clear of human thoughts. Complications. I don’t get those as clearly. I think they’re not as clear to their owners, half the time. All those convoluted thoughts and dreams; all that longing. All that rage. Animals are straightforward. I want. I have. I am. It’s not just my natural gift. I really prefer to work with them.
    Still, I couldn’t avoid picking up on something when Sheila – Mrs. M. – let me in. First of all, she opened the door herself. The last time I’d been here – a molting issue – there’d been a houseboy. Man servant. Whatever you call the help these days. But also, she was bothered, agitated about something. Even I could sense that.
    “It’s the racket,” she said. “I can’t hear myself think.” So much for dumb, I thought, but I was glad I’d come. It was probably loneliness. I wondered if she’d taken Bridget out for more than the necessary. If she’d played with Lucille – that’s the Persian – at all.
    “How long is Mr. M. away for this time?” I don’t call him Paul, not to her. She gave me a look. Was I that transparent? “It’s just that he seems to exercise the animals quite a lot. Maybe there’s some pent-up energy here.”
    “I do plenty.” She drew herself up, all five-foot-nothing of her. “I’d do more if I had the time.” She’d read my mind. “Besides, that’s what Alain is for.”
    As I said, it’s none of my business. I smiled as bland a smile as I could conjure up and asked to see the animals. She let me in and I climbed the stairs. Lucille tended to spend her days in Paul’s office. Tucked into the back of the townhouse, it overlooked an alley. The room on the other side had all the sun, but that was Mrs. M’s “atelier.”  She did something with design before they had married. Still, Paul had made a cozy space in that back room, with built-in bookshelves and a window seat that opened to hold odds and ends.  The aquarium in the corner acted like another window, colorful and full of life. But Lucille had claimed the wide window seat as her own, rather than go for the fish, and I always suspected Paul left that window cracked for her. So she could smell the wide world through the screen. Lucille was a peaceful sort, as long as her position wasn’t questioned. And maybe there were rats in the alley, or at least pigeons.
    But even though the midmorning sun was making a rare appearance, highlighting the velvet cushion placed just so, Lucille was nowhere in sight.
    “I don’t know what’s gotten into that cat. Maybe it’s age.”
    “She’s not that old.” I responded quickly and she gave me that look again. You don’t have to be sensitive to pick some things up. Mrs. M. had wanted to get rid of Lucille from the start. Even after I’d told her that Bridget had fallen hard for the silver feline, and that Lucille had accepted the dog as her charge and loyal subject.
    “Well, maybe she’s sick.” She motioned me over to Paul’s desk. I peered underneath. Two green eyes blinked up at me. “You don’t think it’s fleas, do you?”
    “No, Mrs. M.” I got down on my hands and knees, cat level, and looked back up at her. From here, she was gigantic. “She never goes out.”
    Mrs. M. snorted, if such a ladylike nose could produce such a sound. For a moment, I was afraid she was about to take a seat beside us.
    “If I could have a little time with her alone?” I know that look.  Those suspicions. But I’m bonded and insured for my other job as a pet sitter. And my specialty really did pay well enough that I wouldn’t have been tempted, even if I was the sort to steal.  
    She lingered, her pretty eyes narrowed. There was something wrong, something I didn’t like coming off her today. Almost a scent. But like I said, people aren’t my specialty. That feeling – distrust, dislike, whatever you want to call it – could have been coming from me.
    At any rate, she left, and I got comfortable on the thick wool rug, just a few feet from Lucille, letting us both get used to each other.
    “I didn’t do anything wrong.” The thought came to me entire, not in words exactly but as a sense of hurt. Injustice. Someone had been punished unfairly. “I didn’t do anything wrong.”
    I  looked at the grey Persian before me and contemplated stroking her. Sometimes the physical contact is calming, making a stronger bond and easier connection. Sometimes...
    I put my hand out, palm up and fingers extended for her to sniff. She closed her eyes. “So loud.”
    “Shh.” She looked up at me then and sniffed my fingers, inviting me to stroke her long, silky fur.
    “What was loud, Lucille? Did someone yell at you?”
    “Call me Pussums. He always did.” I felt her relax as I rubbed the base of one broad, velvet ear. “And it wasn’t a yell. It was a clap.”
    Now we were getting somewhere. I could imagine Mrs. M. slamming those neat, manicured hands together, not caring how sharp the sound to the sensitive feline ears. “Was it Mrs. M?” Lucille looked up at me, silent, and I realized I had no idea what they called her. If they thought of her at all. “Was it the lady?”
    “So loud.” Lucille had withdrawn back into herself. “I won’t sit there again.”
    I sighed, promising both myself and the Persian that I’d come back before I left, give her silver fur a good brushing. But I wasn’t going to get any more from her now. I worked my way to my feet.
    “Wa-awk! Honey.” Rufus, the parrot, noticed me standing, his greeting an eerie echo of Paul’s voice. “Honey?” I didn’t know if he called the bird that, or his wife, but Rufus had it down. “Honey?”  Maybe Paul had been trying to get Rufus to learn a trick.
    “Hey, Rufus. What’s up? You want me to do something?” The green bird whistled softly. “Wa-awk.”  That was it. I don’t get much from birds.
    “Mrs. M.?” Usually Bridget had the run of the house, but as I stood on the landing I heard no sign of her. Not the scuffle of claws on hardwood. Certainly not the barking she’d complained of.
    “Oh, I’m down here.” I descended to the first floor. She was in the kitchen, browsing the open refrigerator. It must have been the help’s day off.
    “You wanted me to see Bridget?” She took out an individual container of yogurt and closed the door behind her, like a safe.
    “She’s in the work room.” She meant the basement, and she must have seen the look on my face. “The noise. It’s intolerable.”
    She pointed to a door, and I let myself down. Sure enough, as soon as I flipped the light switch, Bridget started yapping, bouncing up and down with an urgency I’d not seen in the tiny toy.
    “Must go out! Must go out! Now, now, now!” It came through so clear I found it hard to believe Mrs. M. didn’t hear it. But she stood there, at the stair’s top.
    “Has she had her walk?”  I looked around for her leash.
    “She did her business. I took her down to the shop, too.” Mrs. M had a storefront gallery space for her designs and those of her friends. I thought of it as a clubhouse, but it was a good five blocks away. “Just an hour ago.” She said it like she didn’t expect me to believe her.
    “Must go out! Must go out!”
    “She seems restless.” My head was hurting. The little dog was loud, and there was an urgency to her yelps.
    “Must go out! Now! Now! Now!”
    “As you wish.” She raised a hand, clearing herself of any involvement and stepped back from the door. As more light came down, I saw the leash, hanging from a brass hook. But before I could snap it onto Bridget’s collar, the little dog took off. Scrambling up the stairs, she didn’t stop by the front door but made straight for the upper floor. Her claws scraped and scrabbled for their footing and I almost caught up. In this mood, with Lucille already in a funk... Behind us, I heard the clip-clip-clip of Mrs. M.’s heels.
    “Must go out! Must go out!” None of this was making sense. The little dog ducked into Paul’s office. Ran up to the window. Lucille was back on her pillow, staring into the alley,  her tail  hanging limp. Bridget barked up at her. “Must go out!”
    “Honey? Honey?”  Rufus began flying around his cage, strong green wings beating against the sides. “Honey!”
    “Must go out!” The little dog leaped up to the window seat, knocking the silver cat aside as she threw herself against the window screen. “Must go out! Must go out! Master!”
    No! That’s what I heard as the silver Persian reared back and hissed. “Stay!” Bridget sat back, stunned.
    “Wawk! Honey? Honey don’t!”
    Behind me, I heard a gasp. Mrs. M. stood frozen, her face as white as Lucille’s undercoat.  Then she turned and clattered down the stairs. The animals stared at her departing back, the blonde head bobbing downwards. “Wa-awk!”
    I scooped Lucille up in my arms. She was shaking, her back tense, fur raised.
    “Pussums.” I held her close, nuzzling her soft coat until I could feel the trembling subside. “We have to talk.”

    By the end of the day, the cops had the whole story. Mrs. M. hadn’t wanted to give it up, but the evidence did it for her. Which was good, because I really didn’t want to explain why I had called. Or how I’d happened to unearth the pearl-handled Remington tucked into the window seat. Why she’d taken it back in, after dispatching her husband, I couldn’t figure. An animal would have had the sense to bury it, to throw it after him into the dumpster. They found Alain, once they knew. He was traveling in Paul’s name, leaving a paper trail that would have had him disappear somewhere in LA. She was more of a California type anyway.
    I was sad, of course. Paul had really loved those animals. But I wasn’t surprised. Not really. I guess I’m better at people than I’d thought.
    I never did talk to those fish.

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Circulation by Pat Remick- written version

Pat Remick is an award-winning short story author and veteran journalist, and has co-authored two non-fiction books. She is 2010 president of Sisters in Crime New England, co-chair of the Nov. 12-14, 2010, New England Crime Bake conference for mystery writers and readers, and a member of Mystery Writers of America. Her short stories have appeared in anthologies and she is working on a novel. Pat blogs at PatRemick.blogspot.com and at workingstiffs.blogspot.com. Her web site is


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Circulation


 

It was the kind ofheat that could turn deadly. Edward Philbrick traced watery trails through the condensationclouding his beer mug and wondered how long it would it be before theblistering temperatures took their toll.

His looked up ashis uninvited supper companion plopped down on the red plastic stool beside himand said, “Hot enuff fer ya?”

            “Whatthe hell do you think?” Edward grumbled. He turned his attention back to hissteaming plate of “Tonight’s Special” at the Pines Café: overcooked pot roast, yellowmashed potatoes covered with lumpy brown gravy, and washed-out green beans bathedin far too much butter.

            Eventhe coldest beer wouldn’t counteract the heat rising from his plate. But the $5.99“Special” was affordable, an important consideration given two ex-wives and fivechildren scattered across the country. They despised him, but not the money hesent faithfully each month. Edward understood obligation all too well.

Tonight he hadlittle appetite for his supper or another conversation about a sweltering NewEngland summer day. Edward had heard “Hot enuff fer ya?” too many times already.

He realized CochecoMills was no different from small towns everywhere with their citizenry connectedby endless discussion about the weather because they often had little in commonbeyond their shared geography. But what did these New Englanders expect? It wasAugust, for chrissakes. They were just too cheap to embrace air conditioning intheir belief that scorching heat was as rare a blizzard in May.

They seemed toforget that every summer brought a few days when their homes became stiflingboxes filled with the sound of whirring fans that barely circulated the heavyair. Heat shimmered off the blacktop and threatened to ignite the dry brown needlesalongside the roadways, creating a pungent combination of pine and tar. Limp clothingclung to sweaty bodies. It resulted in a common irritability aggravated byconstant complaining about the oppressive heat. Even the churches prayed for anend to the searing temperatures.

            “Areal scorcher, ain’t it? Get this hot in Texas, Eddie?”

Edward hated to becalled Eddie by anyone and especially by Bill Wykoff. It implied a familiaritythat did not exist. Sharing space at the café’s worn Formica counter didn’tmake them friends. If it had, the friendship would have been one-sided sincethe retired postal carrier generally talked nonstop, primarily about himself.Most nights, Edward found it easier to daydream than try and fight his way intoBill’s monologue. But tonight he was too irritated to keep quiet.

“Are you kidding? Backin Texas, it was hotter than this in the middle of winter, for chrissakes.That’s why there were so many murders – too frigging hot.”

 “Well, I reckon we’d rather have heatand mosquitoes than murdahs,” Bill said, his New Hampshire accent destroying the“r’s” on some words and adding them to others.

He waved over thenew part-time waitress, a perky high school student named Brittany, and askedfor a lemonade refill. “Of course, some would say the mosquitoes are murdahenough, right Brittany?” he chortled. 

The teenagerpolitely smiled. Edward was too hot to be amused.  “Hey, Missy, any chance you can find another fan to get someair circulating? It’s too damn hot in here to eat.” Brittany’s smile vanishedas she scurried off.

 “Give her a break, Eddie. The heat’s nother fault,” Bill said.
            “If you call me Eddie one more time, I just might murder you. Maybe thatway you’d get the point.”            

Come to think ofit, a murder would definitely be more exciting than what qualified as news inthis former factory town. Edward was weary of running stories about thenever-ending squabbles of the volunteer selectmen, the recurring -- and thusfar unfounded -- panic that a big-box store would move in to drive out local businesses,and the infinite number of local sports that changed only with the players’names.

Neither Bill northe general population of Cocheco Mills realized it, but the byline of “Edward T.Philbrick II” once stood tall atop scores of major news stories. In his day, Edwardhad toppled the arrogant, humbled the elected, and exposed the entrusted.

Cocheco Mills sawonly a pot-bellied, middle-aged newspaper editor who ate supper every eveningat the town’s sole year-round restaurant because there was no one at home tocook for him. In three short years, Edward had become part of the town’s dailyrhythm, someone who showed up at Rotary meetings and other local events, andmade sure their lives were chronicled.     Hehated this town.

Edward’s miserywas interrupted by the sound of angry voices coming from the small office off thecafé’s dining room. He could see its “manager,” a tall, skinny 20-year-oldnamed Jimmy Jones, arguing with his pregnant wife who had arrived minutesearlier. From the few words Edward could make out above the clatter, Tiffanywas resisting Jimmy’s demands that she go home to clean in preparation forentertaining his parents the following evening. 

            “Whatare you lookin’ at?” Bill asked.

Edward pointedtoward the office. “Looks like the new Mrs. Jones may be thinking better of herdecision to marry our esteemed manager. Wanna bet how long this marriagelasts?”

“Until he’s a bigbasketball star. Everyone’s says he’s goin’ to make it to the big time,” Billsaid.

 “Yeah, right.”

Edward didn’t likeJimmy. There were rumors the cocky young man had a history of bullying andbrushes with the law that his parents used their financial influence toconceal. Edward knew people resented that Jimmy got away with so much over theyears. But not even his family could save him from the rule that two failinggrades made him ineligible to play basketball his senior year so Jimmy droppedout of Cochecho Mills High.

After hearing somuch praise over the years, Jimmy considered it only a minor setback on theroad to a professional basketball career. He played in all the regional leaguesand supported himself with “temporary” employment at the Pines Café. In twoyears he had advanced from line cook to manager of the restaurant now decoratedwith his sports trophies. There were rumors cocaine made it easier for Jimmy tobelieve the pro scouts would come.

Brittany returnedfrom the kitchen with another box fan and plugged it in near the end of thecounter. “About time,” Edward said. 

Brittany managed aweak smile. “Another beer, Mr. Philbrick?”

“Better make it atall one. I need something to cool me down before I go back to the newsroom.It’s like a sauna.” 

“More lemonade,Mr. Wykoff?” Brittany asked.

 “Please make mine a tall one, too, mydear.” Bill removed his faded U.S. Postal Service cap and used a paper napkinto wipe his bald head. Then he launched into a lengthy series of anecdotesabout his hottest days as a mail carrier.  

Edward tried toappear interested even though he had heard all the stories before. He preferredto drink his beer in peace rather than deal with the agitation that followed ifBill realized he wasn’t listening.

He had just 15minutes of his supper break left, but Edward needed more liquid fortificationto face another frustrating evening of dealing with rookie reporters who couldn’tspell or find the lead of a news story unless it bit them in the butt. He wastired of training these ungrateful beginners only to watch them leave for higher-payingjobs and more glory than he had enjoyed in years.

He also dreadedtomorrow’s meeting with the out-of-state publisher, who arrived like clockwork twicea year to “look at ourselves on paper” and gauge the newspaper’s financialhealth. Edward avoided the advertising side of the business, but sensed thingswere not going well.  

“What in tarnationis going on?” Bill asked, nodding toward the office.

The shouting waslouder. Edward thought he saw Jimmy raise his hand to Tiffany before he slammedthe door shut. Seconds later, a sobbing Tiffany ran out of the restaurant,hands covering her pretty face.

 “Sure you don’t want to place a bet onthat marriage?” Edward asked.

Bill used hisnapkin to wipe his glasses and blot the moisture off his head again. “Everycouple has squabbles, you know that. Even me and my beautiful wife, Ann, Godrest her soul, had some doozies over the years.”

As Bill launchedinto a lengthy narrative about the many qualities of his late wife, Edward watchedBrittany place her order pad on the counter, walk quickly to the office, slipinside and close the door. Less than 10 minutes later, she and Jimmy emerged, facesflushed and clothing slightly askew. He thought Jimmy looked well-comforted.

Edward sighed andput a $10 bill and change on the counter. “Duty calls. See you tomorrow, Bill.”  

Bill nodded and,still talking about his beloved late wife, turned toward the truck drivereating silently beside him.

            Jimmyleaned against the doorframe inside the entrance, a smirk on his face. Edwardstopped and pointed at him. “Hey Mr. Manager, think maybe you could check thethermometer – and the calendar -- and find some ‘specials’ that are slightlymore appropriate for the weather?”

            “Surething, Mr. Philbrick,” Jimmy said, still grinning. “And when do you thinkyou’ll run a story on the summer league and all the points I’m scoring?”

“When it’s news,Jimmy,” Edward muttered as he walked outside. He felt the slightest hint of anevening breeze.

Maybe things wereabout to change.

He glanced towardthe river and noticed a shiny black sedan with tinted windows and Massachusettsplates approaching on Main Street. It slowed in front of the café and turneddown the narrow driveway that led to the employees’ parking lot. The vehicleresembled a limousine, but Edward doubted its mission was upscale.

 

            Thenext day’s meeting with the publisher went even more poorly than Edward couldhave imagined. Examining the Daily News “on paper” produced far more financialnegatives than positives. The young publisher warned Edward he had three monthsto turn things around or the newspaper would become history -- along with his job.

 “Maybe I should just fire you now andput us both out of our misery,” the publisher groaned. “But I’ve never forgottenhow you treated me like a regular reporter instead of the publisher’s son backin Texas all those years ago. You better pull this off, Edward. We can’t keepbleeding cash.”

 Edward had weathered many ups and downsduring his lengthy career. But he wasn’t sure how much lower he could go. TheDaily News was pretty much at the bottom of the other side of “over the hill.”No decent large newspaper would ever hire him as an editor if he got fired fromthis job. And he was just too old, too broke and too jaded to start over as areporter.

Maybe he shouldsell out for a public relations job. The price would be higher than anysmall-town newspaper could pay. But journalism was the only thing that ever excitedEdward. His ten years of working as a reporter in Texas were the most thrillingof his life. The adventure ended prematurely when family obligations forced hisreturn to New England. With his parents – and marriages – now dead, the DailyNews was all he had left.

This weighed onhis mind as he slid onto his regular stool at the café counter a few hoursafter the depressing meeting with the publisher. There was no reason to rushback from supper. The edition had been put to bed.  Only a tragedy of major proportions could wake it up -- like acouple of drunken teenagers wrapping their car around a telephone pole.

Jimmy and Brittanysmiled at him. “Hey, Mr. Philbrick, we got some pretty ‘cool’ specials for you tonight.”Jimmy winked as Brittany giggled and gave her boss an adoring look. “Maybe you’llbe in a better mood to discuss me and the summer league now.”

“We’ll see.” Edwardgrabbed the list of specials from Brittany. He was pleased to discover thatsomeone had figured out that cold chicken salad and gazpacho were better summerfare than steaming pot roast. Maybe cocaine hadn’t totally destroyed Jimmy’s brainyet.

“I thought youmight find these more to your liking, sir,” Jimmy said with a small bow.  “And as they say, the customer isalways right.”

“You come up withthese yourself, Jimmy?”

“Of course I did.”He grinned.

Edward saw aflicker of disappointment cross Brittany’s face before she turned and walkedaway.  Jimmy didn’t seem to notice.Instead, he turned his attention toward Bill Wykoff, who had just come throughthe front door. 

 “Hey, Mr. Mailman, what big fat lies areyou delivering this evening?” Jimmy said loudly.  “By the way, is it true you guys used to open all the packagesand take out what you wanted before you delivered them?”

“You know damnwell the Postal Service doesn’t allow that.”
            Evenfrom a distance, Edward knew Bill was seething. Everyone, including Jimmy, knewBill’s retirement had not lessened his allegiance to the United States PostalService. From his first day of employment, Bill Wykoff had put the PostalService on the same pedestal as God, country and his sainted mother.

 “Well, I do know that when mygrandmother sent me cookies, one of them had a bite taken out of it and youdelivered the box,” Jimmy said.

“Are you accusingme of violating federal law by opening your mail? If so, you better have proof,buddy,” Bill said, his voice rising.

“Chill, you oldcoot. I’m just yanking your chain. Don’t go postal on me.”

Bill glared at theyoung man. “It’s not a joke to accuse someone of a federal crime. Say somethinglike that again and I’ll give you postal with my fist.”

  “Whatever you say, Mr. Mailman,” Jimmysaid. “But you better cool down before you give yourself a heart attack.  Let me get you some lemonade.” Heturned away to get Bill’s drink.

“He thinks I’mkidding,” Bill said, taking the empty stool next to Edward. “I could knock thespit out of that kid in a minute. And I will, too, if he doesn’t stop harassingme.”

“What makes youthink he’s harassing you?” Edward said.

“He’s been makingcracks about the Postal Service all week. I oughta smack him around on generalprinciples. Think that would knock some sense into him, Eddie?” 

Edward grimacedand signaled Brittany to bring him a beer. “How many times do I have to tellyou to call me Edward? How would you like it if I went around calling you Billyor Billy W?”

 “Heat’s making everyone cranky, ain’tit? How about we head down to the tavern after supper and see if we can improvethat nasty mood of yours, old man?”

Edward wasn’t fondof the Corner Tavern, but it was one of the few places that might be tolerabletonight. No sunlight entered the bar and there were enough air-conditioningunits to  counteract the heat and heavyfog of cigarette smoke. Plus, the beer was cold and the music decent. He hadnothing better to do – why not?

As they left,Edward noticed the same black sedan from the day before approach and turn intothe driveway beside the Café.

“Who’s that?” Billsaid. “Looks like out-of-state plates.”
”Probably some friend of Jimmy’s. I doubt he’s here for the food.”

 

 

It was still earlyfor the regular tavern crowd. Edward and Bill took a booth in the back.  The air conditioning was such a relief itwas easy to ignore the darkness and the stale smell of alcohol and cigarettes.

 “What’ll it be, boys? And where youbeen?” asked Kathy, a rough-looking waitress who had been slinging beers aslong as anyone could remember. 

“Here and thereand back again.” Bill winked at Kathy, but she ignored him.

 “If you’ve been reading the paper,you’ve got a pretty good idea what I’ve been doing – a big fat nothing,” Edwardsaid.

Two hours andthree pitchers of beer later, Bill had pretty much run out of things to sayabout himself and his lovely (but deceased) wife. He also ranted about howJimmy Jones insulted not only him, but thousands of Postal Service employees.“Someone really needs to teach that jerk a lesson,” Bill declared more thanonce. Edward nodded and continued drinking.

Having exhaustedhis usual topics and with no new potential listeners in sight, Bill askedEdward about his time in Texas.

 “Did it all: Tornadoes, rodeos, oil andcotton. Courts and crime. But the murders were the best,” Edward said. He felta slight beer buzz.

Bill drained hisglass. “That’s sick.”

“It was great. WhenI was in West Texas, there was at least one murder a week. They were alldifferent. One time a woman went to the bathroom at this cowboy bar and cameout to find another gal in her seat. Pulled out a gun and blew thechair-stealer away. Got her seat back, though,” Edward said.

“Are you serious?”Bill slurred. “Heat make ‘em all crazy or just the wild, wild West?”

Edward laughed.“Probably both. Everyone has a gun in Texas. Back then, if a black man wasmurdered, there might be a couple paragraphs in the back of the newspaper. Butif the victim was white, always front page. That’s why I liked white murders thebest – guaranteed byline on page one above the fold. A real rush.”

Bill refilledtheir glasses while Edward continued reminiscing. “I’ll never forget this newbride was shot to death outside her apartment building in 1979 – wedding gown stillon her bed inside. The managing editor vowed there would be a front-page storyevery day until her murder was solved. Circulation went through the roof.”

 Bill was surprised the beer had loosenedmore words from Edward than three years of eating supper together. 

“I wrote so manystories about ‘beautiful blushing bride Mary-Alice Oatman’ that it got to thepoint that I cared more about finding a new angle for the next story than thefact that a 22-year-old girl was brutally murdered,” Edward said. “Sad to say, Mary-AliceOatman made my career.”

 “Did they evah find out who did it?”

“Nope. Eventuallythe readers got tired of the front-page stories. So did the cops. I went to abigger newspaper but there’s an anniversary story every year. Some people thinkthe husband did it, but no one could prove it.”

“Why the husband?”

“Turned out he hada girlfriend on the side. Cops also wondered if maybe she did it. Couldn’tprove that, either.” Edward lifted his glass: “To beautiful blushing bride Mary-AliceOatman. May she rest in peace.”

 “Where their murdahs in the other placesyou worked?” Bill asked.

“Oh, sure. Barfights, domestics, drug deals gone bad. You name it. But they were neverfront-page stories like the unsolved cases, especially if the victim was youngor attractive. Better if they were both.”

Edward tookanother swig. “We had a preschool teacher fatally shot coming home from herbachelorette party. Even the wire services picked up that story. My byline wasin newspapers all over the country. It was great.”

Bill couldn’tbelieve what he was hearing. “Great?”

“Not the murder,but the play,” Edward said.

“The play?”

“Yeah, play.That’s what you call it when a story gets into a lot of newspapers and on theTV and radio news. Murder always gets big play. ”

“Oh.” Billfrowned, obviously trying his best to understand despite increasinginebriation.

 “Anyway, another time this handsomeall-American-type was shot when he went out to get ice cream for his new wife.Got interviewed on TV for that one.”

“That’s terrible.Did they find any of the killers?”

Edward stared intohis glass. “A few years later, a whacko serial killer named Timothy Lee Zilker claimedhe killed Mary-Alice and the other two, plus about twenty others across the country.They executed him, but the families never believed he was the one. Cops didn’teither.”

Bill was quiet fora moment and then raised his mug. “To all those poor young people.” Then hepassed out, spilling his beer on Edward.

It was time to gohome.

 

At 3 a.m., theringing interrupted Edward’s drunken stare at the blank television screen.“What?” he grunted into the telephone, fighting to sound sober.

It was Police ChiefLen Adkins. A patrolman had discovered the battered and bloodied body of JimmyJones outside the Pines Café just after midnight. He was shot twice in the backand a shattered basketball trophy was nearby. The state attorney general’soffice was sending someone down to help with the investigation. “I thoughtmaybe you’d want to get down here before the big papers,” Adkins said.

Edward changedinto fresh clothes. The streets were clear of traffic and the crackling ofemergency radios outside the restaurant interrupted the predawn silence. Edwardwould not be the only newsman here for long.

 He joined Adkins and a group ofpoliceman near Jimmy’s bloody corpse. “Looks like Mrs. Jones was a tad unhappywith her basketball star hubby,” Edward offered.

 “What makes you think Tiffany did this?They’re newlyweds, for God’s sake,” Adkins said.

Edward hesitated.“Doesn’t mean she didn’t do it. They were fighting a couple nights ago andthings got pretty heated. He may have even hit her.”

Adkins stared atEdward. “Did you see him hit her?”

“No, but I’mpretty sure he did. She ran out with her hands over her face.”

 “Why didn’t you report it? Spousal abuseis a crime in this state.”

“I wasn’t sure.”

“Then you can’t besure now, either, can you? Jimmy was an asshole sometimes, but murdered by hisown wife? That’s crazy.”

 “I think he was fooling around with thatnew waitress, Brittany. With a baby on the way, Tiffany might have mad enoughto kill him. Even if she didn’t, there’s always the cocaine angle. I can’t bethe only one who’s seen those black sedans from Mass.”

“Jaysus. Jimmy’sbody ain’t even cold and you’re making up crap,” Adkins said. “We best justwait and see how this thing plays out.”

They didn’t haveto wait long. All of Cocheco Mills soon knew that Jimmy was not only shot, butalso bludgeoned with one of his prized trophies. They read about it in a DailyNews special edition beneath the byline of Edward T. Philbrick II.

Edward told his youngreporters that covering Jimmy’s killing required experience, preferably someonewho written about murders before. This kind of story was important to anewspaper.

In the days thatfollowed, Edward churned out page one stories with new angles and not-so-vaguereferences to unsavory activities involving Jimmy and those around him. Edwardknew the authorities had no idea who killed Jimmy or why.

Daily Newscirculation soared.  Newsubscriptions were at an all-time high. Newspaper vending boxes were emptied byeager readers. Advertising sales skyrocketed.

The heat spell hadbroken, but there was still plenty to talk about. Cocheco Mills couldn’t getenough of the murder of Jimmy Jones and the search for his killer (“or killers”as Edward speculated).

Chief Adkinsrepeatedly tried to reassure the populace, saying it was unlikely Jimmy was thevictim of random violence. (A theory unsupported by evidence, the Daily Newsnoted.)

Edward used allhis journalism skills to keep the saga twisting and turning. If there was nothingofficial to report, he posed leading questions to authorities. When theyrefused to answer, Edward used their non-responses to raise suspicions.

He asked ChiefAdkins if anyone ever investigated domestic abuse allegations against Jimmy. Asexpected, the chief declined comment. So Edward wrote “Chief Adkins refused toconfirm or deny reports of domestic abuse, or to comment on reports TiffanyJones spent the night at her parents’ home following a newlywed spat hoursbefore her husband’s murder.” It caused readers to wonder if Jimmy was killed forhitting his wife.

Another day,Edward reported authorities refused to confirm that Jimmy was having an affairwith a co-worker who reportedly worked late the night he died. Edward quoted theco-worker’s parents as saying she was home early to finish her homework, makingher identity obvious to café regulars while giving readers another suspect andmotive to consider.

When Edwardlearned police planned to question everyone in the café the night of Jimmy’sdeath, he published his own account of Jimmy’s final hours. He related inpainstaking detail Jimmy’s comments to Bill Wykoff but sanitized Bill’sreaction, for which the retired postal carrier was grateful.

Another day,Edward quoted unnamed sources who related stories about Jimmy’s bullying past.He even contacted drug authorities so he could write they refused comment ona  possible drug connection,providing the first public hint of Jimmy’s substance abuse and sparking rumorshe was the victim of a drug deal gone bad.

Edward also cited“reports that a black sedan with tinted windows and Massachusetts licenseplates was seen at the Café the day of the murder, as well as the day before.”He found “an expert” who said Massachusetts was the source of most illegaldrugs coming into New Hampshire. Chief Adkins demanded Edward provideadditional details.  Edward refusedbut used their conversation for a story the next day.

Salaciousness soldfar more newspapers than sympathy ever could. Edward did everything possible toensure the dirty linen of Jimmy Jones – and everyone around him – was ondisplay each morning.

 Although the café closed out of respect forJimmy’s funeral, it quickly reopened to serve the hungry mourners. By the nextday, Jimmy and his trophies were replaced. Brittany was said to be toodistraught to return. Other than the gossip about each morning’s Daily Newsstory, life seemed to return to normal.

 

But Bill Wykofffelt unsettled. There was a change in his supper routine. Most evenings, Edwardwas so involved in writing about Jimmy’s murder he didn’t eat at the café. Onthe rare occasions when he did, Edward gave only a brief greeting to Bill andthe rest of the regulars as he quickly walked to a rear booth. He ate alone,cell phone beside his plate, and left as soon as he was finished.

Chief Adkins wasnow Bill’s more frequent companion at the counter, too busy investigatingJimmy’s slaying (and dealing with the rumors sparked by Edward’s stories)to  drive home for supper with hisfamily.

 “Hey Chief, this thing ever gonna besolved?” Bill asked one evening a few weeks later.

“Sure as hell hopeso,” Adkins said. “The police databases haven’t turned up anything. I’m gettingso desperate I even tried the Internet to see if I can locate similar cases.”

“Find anything?”

“Not one case sofar where a gun and a basketball trophy were used to kill someone. I don’t havemuch time to search, though, being so busy responding to the Daily Newsstories.  I’m getting pretty tiredof seeing Edward T. Philbrick II’s name, and mine, on page one every day.”

“He really likeswritin’ about these kinds of murdahs. Told me that’s how he made his name inTexas, said they were good for business.”

The Chief put downhis coffee cup. “What do you mean by ‘these kinds of murders’?”  

“You know, youngpeople, just startin’ out, like Jimmy and Tiffany.”

 The Chief was about to respond when hesaw Edward enter the café behind a slickly dressed younger man whom Bill identifiedas the newspaper’s out-of-state publisher. Edward looked away from the counteras the duo headed for a booth by the window. He seemed happy, something thatnever happened when the publisher was in town. 

 Bill felt the hairs stand up on the backof his neck. Now he knew why he felt so uneasy.  The circumstances were too familiar. He leaned toward theChief and whispered: “Have you tried searching the Web for ‘newlywed murders’?”

 

 Across the café, Edward put down hismenu and looked up expectantly. The publisher smiled. “Edward, I met with the advertising side. There’sbeen a phenomenal turnaround. As usual, murder has done wonders for circulationand our profit margin.”

Edward wasrelieved. Maybe he wouldn’t lose his job after all.

The publisher playedwith his fork. “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I’m keeping the Daily Newsopen, but replacing you.”

Edward felt likehe had been sucker-punched. All the effort and long hours, and this was hisreward? He had put the newspaper first, pushed things to the edge and beyond. Edwardfelt his face turning red. He didn’t know if he could control his rage, even ifhe wanted to.

The publisher laughed.  “I can see you’re surprised. Youshouldn’t be. You done good, Edward. I need you in Montpelier. The Beacon needsa new managing editor.”

Edward was stunned.

“And do you knowwhy I want you there, Edward?” the bemused publisher asked.

“Because I hatebeing here?”  

“No, Edward. It’sbecause you understand there are circumstances that can require anextraordinary commitment to boost circulation numbers.”

 Edward waited for his boss tocontinue.   

 “I was afraid you’d lost that commitment,”the publisher said. “It took a while, but you proved once again that you’re notafraid to do what it takes for the good of the newspaper. That’s the kind ofmanaging editor I need in Montpelier. What do you say?”  

Edward struggledto find the right words. Finally he said, “Have I ever let you down?”

 

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Confessions of a Good Mother by Ray Daniel-written version

Born and bred in the Boston Area, Ray Daniel lives in the high-tech
belt West of Boston where he writes and works on reforming his Boston accent.

                                               


                                                   Confessions of a Good Mother


He said, “Baby, take off those pretty shoes.  I want to see the mud
squish between your toes.”

That’s when I shot him.

Truth is, I would have shot him anyway.  It was part of my deal with
that pus bag, Al.  Still, shooting him gave me the same warm feeling I
get when I throw cash into the Salvation Army bucket.  The world was a
better place without him.

I put my LadySmith revolver back into my purse. I prefer a Glock 26,
but I had used the LadySmith in yet another motherly compromise.   I
didn’t have time to root around the forest floor for shell casings
because I needed to pick Monica up at the daycare center.  They charge
five bucks a minute if you’re late.  I left Mr. Toe-jam on the forest
floor and walked back to my Acura MDX through the wet leaves. Carl was
sitting in the passenger seat waiting for me. He always sat there. His
legs didn’t work.

“Ah, the wood nymph returns,” he said.

“Shut up, Carl.”

“Did your buddy enjoy the woods?”

“Right up until I shot him.”

“Well at least he died happy.”

I put the car in gear.  “We have to go or we’ll be late picking up
Monica.  Then, I need to let Al know it’s done.”

“Do you think Al will let you off the hook?”

“He’d better.”

Carl and I drove away from the Boy Scout reservation.  The reservation
was conveniently located in the middle of suburbia.  It was deserted
on a rainy day, but some Scout would find the body in a day or two.  I
hit a pothole and Monica’s car seat base rattled in the back. I
wondered if girl scouts camped in those woods.

We pulled up to the daycare.  It was in a strip mall between a dog
grooming place called Mr. Pooch and a liquor store. I left Carl and
went in.

The front room of the daycare reminded me of a police station. There
was a secure waiting area out front and a high window with glass
across it. I had to reach up to see the receptionist.

“Hi, Dolly.” I stood on tip toe. “I’m here to pick up Monica.”

“Hi, Lyla.” Dolly was a large girl, twenty something, with soft round
cheeks and great skin. “Let me go get her for you.”

She shoved herself out of the small rolly chair and went into the back
room. The chair looked relieved. She spent a minute in the back room
and returned with an unnerving urgency.  Her face was compressed into
a frown.  She saw me watching her and gave a quick smile. Then she
looked in the sign out book.

“Lyla, didn’t you take Monica out?”

“What?”

“I just started my shift, but the book says you took her out.” She
turned the book so I could see it. There was my name printed on the
sign out sheet.  Next to it was a scrawl that looked like ‘Lyla
Black.’  It wasn’t my signature.

I blinked and looked at Dolly. My heel turned as I caught it on the
carpet and I stumbled backward.  A small voice welled up in my
stomach, “Oh no. Oh no. Oh no.”  A moment ago I knew that Monica was
in the daycare.  Now she wasn’t.  I couldn’t catch my breath.

“Oh God, are you OK?” Dolly surged into the waiting area. “Should we
call the police?”

At the word “police” my world steadied. There was a dead guy in the
woods. My revolver was still in my handbag. Someone might have seen us
together. The police couldn’t be involved.

“No,” I said, “I just realized what happened.”

“What?” Dolly was alarmed. She should be. She’d lost my daughter.

“My idiot sister must have picked her up. She told me she was coming to town.”

“Why would she sign your name?”

“Well, that’s where the idiot part comes in. She knew she couldn’t
just take Monica out, so she pretended she was me.”

“Is she your twin?”

“No. But she’s small and bossy.”

Dolly accepted the lie and apologized for the scare. I settled into
the role of looking relieved. I told Dolly that I was going to go home
and yell at my sister and that I’d only call back if there was a
problem.

I fled the daycare and got back in the car.

“Where’s Monica?” asked Carl.

“She wasn’t there.”

“What are you talking about, where is she?”

“I think I know.”

#

Al Cassini’s body shop looked like a rust factory. He didn’t have
enough business to keep the shop going, but it served its purpose as a
front and a source of legitimate income. While Al pretended to be
fixing cars, he sold drugs and ran prostitutes.  He also did some loan
sharking on the side.  I owed Al money.

We pulled up to the body shop.

“Carl, wait for me in the car.”

“Like I have a choice.”

“Jerk.”

I walked into Al’s garage. A car was up on the lift having its guts
torn at by some Hispanic kid with a greasy little caterpillar
moustache. Al sat in the back of the garage at an old dining room
table that served as his desk. Two meatballs in Patriots jackets stood
on either side of him. Al’s table was made of chipped and stained
cherry wood. He had a sign on the table that said, “In God We Trust.
You pay cash.” Funny.

Al was all smiles.

“There’s my girl!” His two meatballs snickered. The one on the left
looked me up and down and then let his eyes rest on my crotch. I
ignored him.

“We’re square now, right Al?”  I owed Al $20,000 for hospital bills
from Monica’s birth. Assassins don’t have health insurance.

“Is it done?” Al asked.

“It’s done.”

“Then we’re square, honey. You done good.”

I reached into my purse and drew my LadySmith. I pointed it right at
Al’s nose. “Then where is she?”

The Hispanic kid muttered “Dios mio” and bolted. I could hear his
sneakers fading away.

The meatball on the right reached for his gun.  I said, “Don’t.”

He did.

His jacket billowed as he drew.  I shot him in the sternum. He looked
surprised and slid to the floor, wheezing.  He twitched a few times
and then was still as he bled out.

“Oh no.  Too slow,” I said to the dead meatball.

“Jesus!” said Al, “What the fuck are you doing?”

I pointed my gun back at Al.  “Where is she?”

Al looked down at his dead bodyguard and back at me.  Then he smiled –
smug bastard.  He knew he had information I wanted.  He relaxed and
put his feet up on the table.  The crotch lover looked from me to Al
to the dead guy and back to me. He had no idea what was going on.

Al kicked his chair onto two legs, “You want to stop pointing that at me?”

I held it steady, “She’s gone.”

“Who’s gone?”

I fired a shot into the wall over Al’s head. He didn’t flinch. He
looked me in the eye.

I said, “Where’s my baby? Where’s Monica?  I told you I’d do the job.
You didn’t need a hostage.”

“A hostage?  You’re crazy.”

I aimed the gun at Al’s chest.

“Did you send that whore Doreen to take her?  She looks like me.  Did
Doreen take my baby?”

Al jerked his feet off the table and dropped forward.  He pounded his
fists on the table top and stood.  I almost shot him.  He leaned
forward and said quietly, “What do you think I am?”

“I think you’re a pus ball, Al.”  My arm was tired, but I kept my gun
aimed at his chest.  I watched the remaining body guard out of the
corner of my eye.  He didn’t move.

“I may be a pus ball, but I’m not a baby stealer. I didn’t take her
and Doreen is working.”

“Then who did? Who else would?”

“Get the hell out of my office.”  Al nodded toward the body on the
floor. “I’ll spot you dickwad here.  He brought it on himself.  But I
swear.  You either leave, shoot me, or get that gun rammed up your
ass.  I don’t know where your kid is.”

It didn’t make sense for Al to deny taking Monica.  If he had her he’d
be using her to threaten me.  He didn’t have her.  I backed out of the
garage.  I kept my gun on Al until I was at the door.  Then I put it
in my purse and ran back to the SUV.

“Sounded like that went well,” said Carl.

“Shut up.”  My hands were shaking.

“Where’s Monica?”

“I don’t know!”  I had pinned my hopes on Al.  As long as I thought he
had Monica I could hold it together.  But now I had no idea where she
was.

“He doesn’t have her?”

“No, you idiot!”  I poked at the ignition with a shaking key.  Scraped
around and finally got the car started. “He doesn’t have her.”

Carl had nothing to say – finally.  Being unable to walk had made him
a sarcastic bastard.

I pulled out of Al’s driveway and into the street.  I needed some
highway driving.  I needed to think.  Panic was edging its way around
my defenses.  This morning I had a daughter.  She was five months old.
She had just started to sit up.  I could put her in front of blocks
and she’d amuse herself.  That’s what she was doing when I left her at
the daycare.  All day long, I knew she was in the daycare, but it was
a lie. How long had it been a lie?  When had someone come and taken
her?

I accelerated onto the highway. Rush hour was starting up so I moved
into the commuter lane. The white diamonds slid under my car as I
thought.

“Carl, we need to retrace this,” I said.

“Sounds good.”

“When did we drop her off?”

“Ten o’clock.”

“And then I called on our buddy. I got him to take me to lunch.”

“Right. You had lunch at the Indian place that looks like a diner.”

“Yeah. Then I told him I’d meet him in the woods.”

“Yup. You said you’d meet him at 3:00.  We drove around and waited.”

“How long was I in the woods?”

“You were there for an hour. The same time that they took her,” said Carl.

I froze.

“What did you say?”

“I said they took her when you were in the woods.”

“How would you know that?”

“It was in the log. You told me.”

“No I didn’t. I never saw the time in the log.  I didn’t tell you anything.”

Carl stared straight ahead.

“Carl. Where is she?”

Carl was silent.  He stared at the road as if the white commuter
diamonds held the meaning of life.

My voice rose, “Carl. Why did you take her?”

Carl swayed slightly.  He watched the road.  I left the question out
there and let the tension rise.  He finally cracked.

“It was for the best.”

“What?”

“It was for the best.  She couldn’t have you as a mother.”

I digested his words.

“Where is she?”

“I’m not telling you.”

“Why not?”

“Monica deserves better.”  Carl’s voice was clipped.

“What do you mean she deserves better?  I love her!”  I was having
trouble keeping the car in the lane.  We were doing 70.

“You don’t even want her.”

“Of course I want her!”

“Why is it that the one life you couldn’t snuff out was hers?”

“You mean I should have gotten an abortion?”

“Look at how you treated her!”

“She’s my baby!”

“You can barely stand her!  You yelled at her when she kept you up
nights.  One time, you almost shook her. You know just how close you
came to shaking her.”

“She wouldn’t stop crying.  I hate it!”

“They never stop crying!  That’s why mothers are supposed to love
them.  Because if they don’t love them, they’ll kill them.”

“I would never have hurt her!”

“You left her in the car the day you killed Bobby Wilton.”

“It was for fifteen minutes.”

“It was for two hours. Two hours in the car while you sidled up to
Bobby so you could get him alone.  Did you kill him before or after
you screwed him?”

“I love her!”  My voice cracked and strained against my vocal cords.
My eyes started to fill.  My breath shortened and I sucked air in
short raspy gasps.  I looked at Carl with a new understanding of just
how terrible he’d become.  My hand slipped into my bag.

Carl must have seen my movement.  “Oh, are you going to kill me too?”

I knew what I needed to do.  I took the revolver out of the bag.

“I’m not going to kill you. How would I find Monica if I killed you?”
I aimed the gun at his leg.

“You’re a terrible mother.”

“Goddamn you, where is she?”

“You don’t care about her.”

“I swear. I will put a bullet right through your frigging kneecap.
Where is she?”

“I gave her to an orphanage.”

“You bastard!” My voice hurt my ears.  Carl’s kneecap would certainly
hit the glove box before it fell to the floor. I was going to love his
screams.  My finger tightened on the trigger just as flashing sirens
filled my vision.  There was a police car behind me. I swore and hid
my gun.

“You keep quiet, Carl, or I swear you’ll pay.” Then I pulled over.

The cop pulled up behind me, his lights flashing.  He was a state
trooper, young and big and full of his own power.  He pulled his cap
down tight over his closely cropped hair. I sat in the car with my
hands on the wheel, willing Carl to keep his mouth shut.

He stood right next to my driver side window and looked in.  Obviously
he didn’t think I was a threat.  I could have shot him.  Crappy
training.

“You OK, ma’am?”

I flinched a bit at “ma’am.”  I hated the term.

“Yes, officer, I’m fine.”

“You were swerving a bit back there.”

“I’m sorry.”

He looked at Carl who didn’t meet his gaze.  Then he looked back at
me, “License and registration, please.”

I gave him the fake license that matched the registration.  Now we’d
see how good my forger was.  As the cop went back to his car, I opened
my bag and took out my LadySmith.  The damn thing was getting a lot of
use today. I was starting to like it. Maybe I’d switch from the Glock.

If the ID didn’t work, he’d be back.  He’d ask me to step out of the
car.  I’d have to shoot him. I’d keep the gun in my coat and shoot him
when he asked me to lean against the car.  It was a shame. He was a
handsome kid.  In other circumstances I might make a pass at him.  Let
him know that I’d be having coffee down the road at the end of his
shift.

But I’d probably have to shoot him and run.  I should probably run
anyway. There were two bodies in town.  They could both be linked to
me. I’d take Monica and we’d run.

“Would you step out of the car, ma’am?”  This was it.  I stepped down
from my SUV and kept the gun in my coat.  Now he’d want to frisk me.

“Ma’am, who’s your friend?”

“That’s just Carl.”  Maybe I wouldn’t have to shoot the kid after all.

“Why is he in your front seat?”

“He’s there for security.”

“OK, ma’am. I understand having one of those inflatable guys in your
car.  A woman your size shouldn’t be seen traveling alone. I get that.
But, you can’t use the commuter lane because you have a fake guy next
to you.  Is that clear?”

“Yes, officer.”

He handed me my license and registration.

“You look like you’ve had a tough day, ma’am.  Why don’t you go home
and get some rest.”

“Thank you, officer.”

I sat back in the car and looked at Carl.  He swayed softly in the
breeze and his seams and plastic sheen caught the flashing lights from
the police car.  His frozen, implacable, face stared through eyes
painted in place.

My memories flooded back.  Leaving Monica at the front door of the
orphange.  Kissing her goodbye.  Running back to the car and not
looking back.

I started driving. Sobs punched me in the gut. The job today had been
sloppy. Al would sic the cops on me. He’d be pissed that I pulled a
gun on him. The tears blinded me. I found a rest area. I got out of
the car. I couldn’t stay in this town anymore. I ran among the picnic
tables and screamed into rain.  I staggered to the tree line, threw
myself onto the wet pine needles and sobbed.

Monica would be safe at the Sisters of Mercy.  She’d be given a real
home.  She might not even know she was adopted.  Without me, she’d
have a good mother.

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'Twas The Night by Anita Page- written version

     Anita Page's short stories have appeared in The Prosecution Rests (Little, Brown), Murder New York Style (L&L Dreamspell), Word Riot, Mysterical-e, Mouth Full of Bullets, Ball State University Forum, Jewish Horizons, and Heresies. She recently completed a dark traditional mystery set in the Catskills featuring Hannah Fox and Jack Grundy, who make guest appearances in "'Twas the Night," published last fall in The Gift of Murder (Wolfmont Press). She lives in New York's Mid-Hudson Valley.                                             





                                                              ‘Twas the Night
 
The dog was waiting for me, as I knew she would be, Martin Broome’s big yellow mutt from across the road. It took three trips to carry groceries and my cameras into the cabin. The rest of it would wait until tomorrow. I started a fire in the woodstove, because April in the Catskills is still winter; made a pot of coffee; topped off a mug with a shot of Irish. Despite the cold I left a window open and let the singing waters of the stream ten feet from my cabin put me to sleep, ending—finally—the worst day of my life.
The next day wasn’t much better, the previous afternoon replaying in my head like one of those goddamn loops you get when you’re on hold, only this one came with pictures. One p.m. email from my boss: See me. Ten minutes later, the face-to-face: Take the buyout because if you don’t they’re going to can you. Not a surprise since a third of the photography staff at the paper had already been laid off, but nothing hurts like your own pain. Twenty after three, arrive home to find my wife’s car and her law partner’s car in the driveway. I think, either they’re working from the house or they’re not working at all. I bet on the latter, and I’m right. Two hours later, after loading up my car, I’m on the road, congratulating myself on not having slugged either of them, though I wish to hell I had.
That first day at the cabin I unpacked and swept up, my mood a toxic mix of rage and self-pity. Around five, desperate to escape my own company, I drove the dozen miles to Filly’s Tavern outside Laurel Pond, the closest town of any size, with the intention of drinking myself blind. I was well on my way sometime later when I attempted to make conversation with the tight-lipped fellow on the next stool. He gave me a look that I took to mean shut up, which I did. He was a big guy and I wasn’t so drunk that I didn’t see cop written all over his face.
Next thing I knew I was curled up on my couch, covered with a blanket, my pounding brain not helped by the daylight, my mouth tasting like a box of used kitty litter. After a shower and two cups of coffee, my head cleared enough to figure out that someone, maybe the cop, had gotten me home and tucked me in.
That simple gratuitous gesture almost brought tears to my eyes. I sat out on the deck, breathing in the woods, taking stock. I didn’t have a job and my marriage was comatose, but I was forty-eight years old, in good health, with enough money to get by for a while without working, and a big yellow mutt for company. Life could be worse.
First thing, I phoned my lawyer because I knew Ellen would go for blood. We’d kept our money separate, something she’d always insisted on and which would have been a sign if I’d been paying attention. I didn’t want what was hers, but I damn well wanted what was mine, including the cabin I’d built more than twenty years before. That done, I made a list of projects: re-shingle the roof, screen in the deck, put in a sleeping loft. Nothing like being unemployed to free up your time.
I called on my neighbor, Martin Broome, a few days later. He was the owner of Lady, the mutt who preferred my place to his. I found him splitting wood in his muddy side yard and made a proposal: If he let me turn over a quarter acre of his cleared land to put in a garden—my property was heavily wooded—I’d give him two-thirds of what I grew. That seemed fair, since he was feeding himself and his mother.
He agreed, as I expected he would. It was obvious the Broomes were living close to the poverty line, their place badly run down. He and his mother kept chickens and I imagined the egg money and Social Security were all they had.
Martin was a dour man, not much for conversation, with a trimmed beard and gray hair that he wore slicked back. His mother was frail, in her nineties I guessed, but her mind was  sharp. She invited me to join her on the porch, where she sat in her straight-backed chair, crockery bowl on her lap, shelling peas and wanting a little company. We talked about my plans for the garden and she caught me up on local gossip. As I told the police, I think that was the last time I saw her, but I can’t be sure. There may have been another time after that.
Between the garden and the cabin, I kept busy through the summer. I was lonely, but Lady helped, as dogs do. Friends emailed me—my cell didn’t work in the mountains and only Ellen and my lawyer had my land line number—and after assuring everyone I was alive and well, I cut off contact. I suppose it was my way of pretending that the world I’d left behind no longer existed.
Three or four evenings a week I drove to Filly’s. Typical roadhouse, smelling of beer and the grease from the kitchen. Long bar with a TV above it, booths along one wall. I was there mostly for the company, nursing a beer, checking out the ballgame. Often the cop was there, the one who’d seen me home that night. Jack Grundy was a good man, a bit reserved, but we enjoyed trading cop stories for newspaper stories.
One night in late July, I told Grundy about the Broomes, who were on my mind. They’d neglected to pick up the tomatoes and peppers I’d left on their porch two days before. When I knocked on the door that morning, and again later in the afternoon, there was no answer although Martin’s truck, which he’d been working on for days, was in the driveway.
Jack suggested that maybe someone had given them a ride to town. I’d thought of that, too, wondering if Martin had needed to get his mother to a doctor. If so, I felt bad that he hadn’t come to me. I was right across the road with two working vehicles, the truck I kept at the cabin as well as the car I’d driven up from New Jersey.
“You know how it is,” Jack said. “The old timers don’t like to be beholden.”
The mystery was solved the next day when I saw Martin working on his truck. He barely looked up when I crossed the road. Not wanting to pry, I didn’t ask where he’d been, but said, “If you need to get into town and your truck’s not running, feel free to borrow mine. You don’t have to ask; I’ll leave the keys in the ignition.”
Still with his head under the hood, he mumbled something that sounded like, “Obliged.”
I asked, “How’s your mother doing?”
“Mostly she’s sleeping,” he said, coming out from under the hood. He didn’t look well himself, face drawn, eyes bloodshot. Then he said, “My ma’s not taking much food, so why don’t you keep whatever you pick.”
I took that to mean I’d been right about Mrs. Broome being ill. I assumed that she’d done all the cooking, and with her bedridden, Martin had no idea what to do with the produce I was dropping off. I told him I was going to make a pot of vegetable soup, and I’d leave some on his porch. “An old family recipe,” I said, trying to lighten the mood. “Your mother might enjoy it.”
All he said was, “Suit yourself.”
Gracious guy. Still, I made the soup and dropped off a container as promised. No thanks,  but I didn’t expect any.
I was working in the garden staking my tomato plants—this was about a week later—when a car pulled up at the Broomes’ house. Three women emerged, each carrying what looked like a covered dish or pan. Church ladies, I guessed, bringing food to the invalid. I watched, curious to see how Martin would deal with these callers. When he sent the women away, dishes in hand, I was pissed. His mother was confined to bed and living on gruel, or whatever the hell Martin cooked for her, and he was too stiff-necked to accept their casseroles.
I didn’t see Martin at all in the last weeks of summer. His truck still seemed to be out of commission, but he never borrowed mine. As the days grew cold, the shabby, silent house across the road fed my growing depression, maybe because I saw myself becoming Martin Broome. My mood worsened when the spectacular, but brief, display of fall color was washed away by driving rain.
 One morning, in late November, I woke to a feeling of desolation so paralyzing I wouldn’t have gotten up if not for Lady nuzzling me, needing to go out. During the summer, I let the dog run on her own, but this was hunting season, and the county was crawling with drunks from Long Island and New Jersey staggering around the woods with loaded rifles.
The day was bitter cold and bleak—bare, black branches, dark hills, sky the color of steel. I’d been at the cabin for seven months, pretending I was reinventing my life, but that morning as I walked the winding mountain road, I knew what I’d been doing was hiding out. Seven months with no human contact except for Mr. Personality across the way and a cop who was a bar stool acquaintance. My photography equipment was still in boxes, in the same corner I’d set them the evening I arrived at the cabin. Why bother unpacking? I don’t shoot sunrises or horses grazing in a field. I’m about news—fires, five-car pileups, perp walks. If these were different times, I’d be sending out resumes, but today? Why bother. Newspapers were dead.
I spent the next two weeks holed up, never blind drunk but often not sober, eating beans out of the can. Then, on a Sunday night, I heard a car pull into my driveway and next thing, Jack Grundy was banging on my door. He stepped inside, took a long look at me, and said, “Go take a shower. Hannah and I’ll wait in the car.”
I’d met his friend Hannah at Filly’s. A nice woman. Pretty, too, with dark hair and hazel eyes. That night they took me to an Italian place on the other side of Laurel Pond. Tablecloth, bottle of Chianti, Puccini in the background. We were dining in style. After two weeks of beans, I shoveled down my fusilli con melanzane, barely stopping for a breath. We talked of this and that, neither of them asking about my state of mind, which I appreciated. It was clear, though, that they’d been talking about me because halfway through dinner, Hannah mentioned a friend of hers who ran a gallery and might be interested in displaying my photographs.
She brushed aside my disclaimer that I didn’t do scenery and suggested I photograph the people—old people, poor people—struggling to survive in the mountains. “There’s a story in those faces,” she said.
When I dismissed her suggestion, saying it had been done, she gave me a sweet smile and a one-word assessment of my lame response.
Jack, who’d been eating through this exchange, said, “Don’t fight her because you won’t win. The woman’s relentless once she gets an idea in her head.”
Hannah punched his arm, and he winced, laughing. Watching them, I was hit with a wave of loneliness so strong I could taste it.
The next day, I unpacked my cameras and made some phone calls. Later that week, I dropped in on the Senior Lunch Bunch at the Methodist church. They were a lively group, nine women and two men, late seventies to early nineties, all but one—a man temporarily without teeth while his partial was being repaired—were delighted to sit for me.
One woman, Mrs. DeBuck, round-faced and with what my father used to call bazooms, looked familiar. When she settled herself in the folding chair I’d placed in front of a window, I realized she was one of the church women Martin had turned away.
I chatted her up as I worked, curious to hear what she knew about Helen Broome. Mrs. DeBuck went on for a while about poor Helen and dear Martin, winding up with: “Of course it’s hard on him with his mother up in Saratoga, but I’m sure she’s getting better care with her niece than he could manage on his own.”
Saratoga was news to me. I wondered when and how she’d gotten there. Mrs. DeBuck was vague on both points, but assumed Martin had driven her. A logical assumption except for the fact that the truck hadn’t been moved for months.
The next Friday night, I told Jack and Hannah about my conversation with Mrs. DeBuck. We were back at the same Italian place, my turn to treat.
Grundy’s response, setting down his wine glass, made me think of Lady when she caught a scent of rabbit. “So what you’re saying is, no one has seen this woman since … when? July, August?”
I thought back, trying to place the date. “I know I saw her in April, the day we arranged about the garden, and maybe one time after that.”
Hannah said to me, “Notice the cop mind at work. Poor Mr. Broome has spent years taking care of his old mother and now Jack thinks he bumped her off to collect his inheritance.”
            “Notice how she thinks she can read my mind,” Jack said, which made her laugh.  
Some inheritance, I thought. A few rocky acres and a dozen chickens. Still, the implication behind Jack’s question made me uneasy. I decided to do a little prying and the three of us discussed how that might be done. Then our food came and we changed the subject, talking about the nor’easter predicted for the next day, and our holiday plans, with Christmas a week from Sunday.
             When Martin opened his door to me the next morning, my first thought was: If I passed him in the street, I wouldn’t know him. His hair was long and matted, his beard grown out, and he’d lost so much weight that his clothes, which were filthy, hung on him.
            He greeted me with a surly, “What do you want?”
            I felt like a fool, given that this man’s life was obviously falling to pieces, but I went ahead and asked for his mother’s address, saying I wanted to send her a Christmas card. That was the excuse I’d come up with.
            He stared, bleary-eyed, then said, “I don’t recollect it.”
             I started to ask for the last name of the niece, but he was already shutting the door. I stopped him with my foot, and said, “Martin, is there something I can do for you? Pick up some food at the supermarket before the weather hits?”
            “What you can do is get your foot out of my house,” he said.
            So much for my detective work.           
The storm began at noon, with wind so fierce the snow was horizontal. By evening we had eight inches on the ground. Between the wind and the occasional crack of falling limbs, I spent a restless night. It was still dark when I got out of bed on Sunday and fired up the woodstove. Power was out, so I got my generator going, made a pot of coffee and some oatmeal, then dressed. Once it was light, I’d start plowing.
Mid-morning, snow was still coming down, the radio predicting we’d get two feet. The power outage was countywide, and rescue crews were preparing to pick up the elderly and disabled and bring them to the high school where cots had been set up. I thought about my neighbor, knowing damn well it would take a backhoe to get him out of that house. He had a good woodpile, but without electric to pump his well, he wouldn’t have water. I hesitated after our encounter the day before, but in the end filled a couple of plastic jugs and carried them across to his porch. I banged on Martin’s door, then said the hell with it. If he didn’t find the jugs, he could melt snow on his stove.
Our road was still without power on Thursday. Fresh snow had fallen overnight, and by the time I went out to shovel, we’d had a few more inches. I checked Martin’s chimney, as I normally did. Today, for the first time, there was no smoke. I started across the road, Lady at my heels.
There were no footprints, no tire tracks, no signs of life. I trudged through the deep snow onto the porch. I banged and waited, then tried the door. It swung open and the dog charged in ahead of me. I followed her, not knowing what to expect, afraid Martin had fallen, or worse. But there was no sign of him, not in the three downstairs rooms or in the three small bedrooms above, not in the attic or the cellar. I was coming up from the cellar when I heard Lady barking. She was in a utility room off the kitchen, a space crowded with a hot water heater, an ancient washing machine and a large freezer.
I’d noticed a musty smell in the house as soon as I walked in the door. Not a surprise with the windows closed tight and covered with plastic, an old man who may not have bathed much living on his own, keeping the place neat but I’m sure not scrubbing floors. In the utility room, however, there was a different smell, faint to me but not to Lady, who was pacing back and forth in front of the freezer, alternating between whining and barking. I felt sick; I’d worked for newspapers long enough to recognize that smell.
I dragged Lady out of the house by her collar. Then I called the state police and asked for Jack. When he picked up, I said, “I don’t think Mrs. Broome is in Saratoga.”
It didn’t take long for the state police and ambulance and crime scene van to get there. I stayed in my cabin not particularly wanting to see Mrs. Broome carried out wrapped in tin foil or whatever the hell he’d done with her. I kept seeing her as she was that day in April, shelling peas on her porch.
I made fresh coffee, knowing the police would turn up, which they did. Jack Grundy and another detective stomped snow off their boots, then warmed themselves in front of my stove while I told them what I knew. I wasn’t much help with the big question: What had become of Martin? The police assumed he’d left on foot. If so, the snow had covered his tracks.
By evening the roads were clear enough for me to drive to Filly’s. I hoped Jack would be there, but knew the kind of hours cops pulled when they were working that kind of case. He turned up at nine, alone and looking tired. After we took a booth, he ordered food, then said,  watching for my reaction, “According to the M.E.’s preliminary report, Mrs. Broome died of natural causes.”
I said something brilliant, like, “Holy crap.” I was relieved that Helen Broome hadn’t been murdered by her son, but I was confounded, too. “What was he doing, saving up for a funeral?”
“The old woman dies, he sticks her in the freezer, tells people she’s staying with her niece. Why?” Waiting for an answer, like he was Mrs. Nudleman, my third grade teacher.
It took me a minute. Then I said, “Her Social Security. He’s been cashing her checks.”
“He didn’t have to cash them. She had direct deposit into their joint checking account,” Jack said. Then, “He sold his chickens to one of your neighbors earlier in the week.”
“Once the power went out, he knew he had to run,” I said.
“In this weather, no vehicle, he can’t have gotten far.”
I drank my beer. Ten minutes earlier, in my mind, Martin Broome was a monster. Now I wasn’t sure.
They didn’t find him that day or the next. By Saturday, I was convinced they’d find his body when the snow melted in the spring. Some irony in that, him freezing to death after what he’d done with his mother.
I could have gone to Filly’s Saturday night, but I wasn’t up for the Christmas Eve cheer. I walked the dog, bending my head against the biting wind. Then I went to bed. Lady’s barking woke me a little before midnight. I heard a noise outside and saw a thin beam of light in my driveway. I pulled on boots and a jacket and let myself out.
Martin was engrossed with whatever he was doing under the hood of my truck, but he knew I was there. The wind had died, but it was frigid, the only light from a sliver of moon and the beam of the flashlight wedged under Martin’s arm. Eventually he said, “I’m taking a couple of parts.”
I didn’t know what good they’d do him, since we drove different models, but that wasn’t his worst problem. “Every cop in the state will be looking for your truck once they see it’s gone,” I said.
“I’ll take my chances.” He got out from under the hood, breathing into his bare hands, his wool cap pulled down over his ears.
“Were you planning to keep her in the freezer forever?” I wasn’t expecting an answer, but I couldn’t help asking. I’d known the man—or thought I had—for twenty years.
“Come spring, I was going to take her to the North Country. I know a place up there to bury her. I would have done that right away if my truck was working.”
“The police think you did this so you could get her Social Security checks,” I said.
“That was the idea.”
“And you thought you could get away with it?”
“I told her it wouldn’t work, but she said it would. It might have, if not for my truck and then the storm.”
“Who said it would work?”
“My ma. Who do you think I’m talking about?”
I got it then. His mother had been the brains behind the scheme—though I doubted the freezer had been part of her plan.
“She made me promise,” Martin said. “She was worried about how I’d do with only the one check once she was gone.”
So there it was, the story of the Broomes. A hard life and a lousy ending. The next words came out of my mouth before I had a chance to think about them. “The police won’t be looking for my truck,” I said. “It’s yours if you want it.”
He stared at me like I was talking Chinese. Then he said, “Why would you give me your truck?”
I couldn’t begin to answer, not at five below with frost bite setting in. What I said was, “Merry Christmas, Martin.”
He looked at me for what felt like a full minute, then got back under the hood of my truck, undoing what he’d done earlier. When he was behind the wheel, engine running, he rolled down the window and said, “Lady’s all yours now.”
“Sounds like a fair trade,” I said. Then I tapped the truck with my fist, and watched him pull out, heading north.
 
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Time Will Tell by Twist Phelan - written version

TIME WILL TELL     

by Twist Phelan

            LaurenWinslow swept into my office a half hour after my secretary left, twentyminutes before Security came on duty downstairs. As slim as a fading hope, shewore a long sapphire sheath that was sexy but modest at the same time. She hungher wet umbrella on the coat tree next to the door and collapsed into herfavorite chair, the one closest to my desk.

            Iturned over the spreadsheet I’d been reviewing and put on a welcoming smile.“You’re looking lovely this evening, Madame Prosecutor. What’s the occasion?”

            “Annualjudges’ dinner at the Downtown Club. If I’d known the weather was going to bethis bad, I would have rented a tux.” She brushed off the raindrops thatspangled her hem, revealing a pair of satin slingbacks with vicious heels.“They’re roasting Galletti, so I have to be there. Would you please just killme now?”

            Lauren going to an event for Glamour BoyGalletti? “An evening of lawyers in white ties telling white lies—you’ll bein your element, Counselor.”

            Shechuckled, a low sound of genuine mirth. She had deep-set brown eyes, wavychestnut hair, and a dusting of freckles so fine I often wondered if I’dimagined them. “I think you’d hold your own, Tommy.”

            Laurenheaded up the Complex Crimes Unit for the regional office of the Department ofJustice. A dozen attorneys under Galletti were on a crusade against“sophisticated” criminals—corporate fraudsters, identity thieves, computerhackers, pay-for-play politicos, big-time polluters. “We’re not interested inordinary crooks,” Lauren had told me when we first met. “We go after the smartpeople who’ve gone bad, the ones who screw over widows and orphans.”

            Iheld up an almost-empty tumbler of whiskey. “Care to get a head start on the festivities?”

            Shedeclined, as she always did during her impromptu visits. Instead, she stood upand walked to the window, all fine-boned elegance and height. What began as anafternoon shower had turned into leaden rain. It was an ugly day, exactly asforecast.

            Iwondered why Lauren was here. Usually she dropped by to regale me with somecourtroom triumph—the defeat of a defendant’s motion to suppress evidence, aunanimous Guilty verdict, a plea thatsent somebody away for twenty-five years. Her stories hinted at rules she hadto bend, witnesses she had to bully into fatal admissions.

Tonight, though, she was different. There wassomething about her I hadn’t seen before; she was wired, so electric she nearlyset the air vibrating. I swallowed a mouthful of scotch, felt the warmth spreadthrough my belly, and waited.

            “HaveI ever told you what brought me to Seattle?” she asked, gazing out at the city.Her skin was pale against the darkness on the other side of the glass.

            “No.”Although Lauren was familiar with my background, she had always beenclose-mouthed about hers. I took another sip of my drink. In less than aweek, I’d be downing mojitos instead of single malt.

            Sheturned, and her dress pulled tight against her thigh. I glimpsed the outline oflace through the thin fabric and sucked in my breath. Lauren was the only womanI knew who wore a garter belt. Her legs were great, and outside the courtroomshe preferred short skirts to pants. During our first meeting she had leanedacross a table to hand a document to Nick, exposing a thin strip of smoothflesh at the top of her stocking. Nearly a minute had passed before I’d beenable to focus on her questions again.

            “Itwas four years ago,” she said, turning away from the window to reclaim herchair. I could smell her perfume. She always wore the same scent—subtle butcrisp, not too flowery. I imagined her touching the glass stopper to the hollowof her neck, dabbing it in between her breasts . . .

            Ifelt the heft of my new watch as I lifted the whiskey bottle from the deskdrawer and replenished my tumbler. Audemars Piguet—the only brand Arnold Schwarzenegger wore. Withits gold face and thirty-two diamonds rimming the bezel, the thing weighedalmost a pound. The black rubber wristband made it popular among the yachtiesin Boca.

            Laurennoticed my new hardware. “Check out the bling. I could hire another paralegalfor what that cost.”

            More like two, I didn’t say. Eightythousand dollars, no discount for cash.

            “Whathappened to the Rolex?” she asked. “Or was that aPatek Philippe in your briefcase?”

            I put the bottle back into the drawer, next to the minidigital recorder. I touched the square red button and left the drawer open.“I still can’t believe you snooped.”

            “Yourdriver shouldn’t have left the back seat door open. And briefcases come withlocks for a reason.”

            Iwas tempted to ask what part of nounreasonable searches and seizures she didn’t understand. “Next you’ll betelling me, if I carry cash, I deserve to have my pocket picked. You’re lucky Ididn’t think you were a carjacker.”

            Laurenlooked at me through her eyelashes. “What if you had, Tommy? Would you haveshot me?”

            “Jesus,how can you—”

            “Inever figured you for one of those big-watch guys,” she interrupted. “Bonusfrom a grateful client?”

            “Ifyou’re gonna keep asking questions, Madame Prosecutor, I want my lawyer.” Isaid it automatically. Not a big–watchguy. I turned my wrist so the diamonds wouldn’t show so much.

            Laurenmade a face. “Very funny, Tommy.”

            As hilarious asthe Fourth Amendment, Lauren. Bad guys aren’t the only ones who thinkthe end justifies the means. I pulled at my drink. Galletti knows it, too.

Outside, headlightswere yellow smears in the downpour, and a foghorn mooed. I knew I shouldn’tspill the beans, but I couldn’t resist.

            “Asa matter of fact, the watch is a going-away present to myself. Good-bye,perpetual rain; hello, eternal sunshine.”

            Laurentilted her head. “You’re moving? Where?”

            Ipicked up the Prada sunglasses from my desk—another recent purchase—and putthem on.

            “Nextweek I’ll be sitting on the private beach of one of the ritziest golfcommunities in Florida.” Harbour View or Vista or something like that. Harbourwith a u of course, and a gatedentrance even more pretentious than the name.

            Gated,alarmed, rent-a-copped. Drop-ins at the office were one thing, but I’venever been keen on clients—or anyone else—showing up at my house. “And I won’tbe back,” I added in my best Ahnuldimitation.

            Asmall crease appeared between Lauren’s brows. A big reaction, if you knew her.I took off the glasses, prepared to launch into my sun, beach, and golf riff.None of these things actually mattered to me, but the explanation had satisfiedeveryone else.

            Fewpeople ever surprised me like Lauren.

            “Soyou’re walking away before things are finished,” she said.

            “Whatdo you mean? The practice is all wrapped up. Not that there was much to do.After what happened to Nick, things went into the crapper pretty fast.”

            Whenmy partner got shot in our parking garage, the local news feasted on it for aweek. There was a lot of speculation—fueled by an anonymous source—that it wasa mob hit. That was enough to scare off old clients and keep away new ones. Iregarded Lauren. And with my other reason to stay in Seattle leaving, too . . .

            “I’mnot talking about your accounting firm,” she said.

            Ilooked at my watch, no longer giving a damn what she thought of it. “Aren’t yousupposed to be at Galletti’s roast?”

            Laurentossed back her prodigal curls. Usually she wore her hair in a ponytail. Idecided I preferred it loose around her face.

            “Iwant to arrive late.” Her tone turned coy. “Besides, don’t you want to hear whyI came to Seattle?”

            Itwas impossible to stay annoyed with her. Besides, this could be our lastevening together before I left. “Go ahead.”

            “Everplay Monopoly when you were a kid?”

            Youcould get whiplash trying to follow her train of thought. “Sure.”

            “Didyou know it’s the only game where going to jail is an accepted risk?”

            Iput on an Uncle Sam scowl and pointed at her. “Do not pass Go, do not collect two hundred dollars.

            Hereyes sparkled. “I used to really rub it in when my brother pulled that card.Sometimes I made him so mad, he’d kick me out of the game.”

            You’re still pissing off the other players,Lauren. “All I cared about was collecting rent,” I said.

            “Spokenlike a true accountant. So, Tommy, did Monopoly make us what we are today?”

            Iwasn’t exactly sure what she was getting at, so I sipped my whiskey and stayedquiet. The rain increased its patter on the windows. It sounded impatient, likea dealer’s fingers drumming on the felt.

            Laurenbroke the silence. “Private placement offerings put together by MerrillBache—coal mining deals. That’s what brought me here.”

            Shewas talking about PPOs. If the investment banks won’t touch you, they’re a wayto raise capital without jumping through too many government hoops. Lawyers andaccountants vet you and your numbers, then brokers sell the deal to“accredited” investors, rich people who’ve been around the financial block afew times.

            Ialways thought private placements were small-time. Give me a REIT any day. Youpool investor funds to buy commercial rental properties or mortgages—that’sserious money.

            “Idon’t remember hearing anything about coal.”

            Sincemeeting Lauren, I’d made a point of keeping up with local financial and legalnews. The deals must have gone down before I moved to Seattle.

            “Itwas a pretty standard fraud. The geology was faked—there wasn’t any coal. Theinvestors got stuck with worthless holes in the ground.”

            Ishrugged. “So a few of the privileged class spent the summer at their lawyer’soffices instead of the beach.”

“Not so privileged,” Lauren said, her voice likeice. “The brokers sold units to anyone who walked in the door, even if theyweren’t accredited. Retirement savings, college funds, cushions against medicalemergencies—they took in millions, tens of millions.”

            Althoughwe’d never talked about it, I sensed that Lauren took investors’ lossespersonally. I wondered if there was private history.

            “Themoney was gone, of course.” I tried to sound sympathetic.

            “Ifollowed the funds through three banks before the trail went cold. As usual,nothing was left stateside. Rich crooks don’t need walking-around money.”

            “Promoterdisappear, too?”

            “Assoon as the deal went south, he followed it.”

            Iswirled the scotch in my glass. “So you were left with the professionals. Iassume you picked the obvious target.”

            Shenodded. “The brokers who peddled the deal. You know how I hate white-collartypes who think the rules don’t apply to them. When these guys tried to playgames during discovery, it really ticked me off. I wasn’t going to settle for afine after that. I wanted them in prison.”

            “Anydefense?”

            “Theusual.” Her voice became singsong. “Each investor received documents describingthe risks, the brokers had no way to know the attorneys hadn’t done the duediligence or that the accountants had inflated the numbers, it wasn’t theirfault unqualified investors bought into the deal, blah blah blah blah.”

            “Didthe jury buy any of it?”

            “Notafter it took the head broker a full five minutes to locate where the lawyershad buried the risk disclosures in the offering memorandum. The printing was sosmall, he couldn’t read it without borrowing the judge’s glasses. Meanwhile,the projected returns were smack dab in the middle of the first page, intypeface as big as the top line on an eye chart.”

            “Itake it you won.”

            “Don’tI always?”

            Thathad been true for as long as I’d known her. Lauren was a real buccaneer. Shetried cases other prosecutors would have passed on, and she was willing to dowhatever it took to win, even if it meant sailing to the edge of legalboundaries, or beyond. I get the message,Lauren.

            Itook a long pull from my tumbler. “A criminal conviction makes a civil suitpractically a slam-dunk. I bet some class-action attorney had a complaint onfile the same day your jury came back.” I could feel my neck getting red.

            Sheplucked at a thread on her sleeve and looked bored. “Probably.”

            “Whatdid the investors finally end up with? Ninety, ninety-five cents on thedollar?” I heard the edge in my voice, so I gulped some of my drink. I had tochoke back a cough as the whiskey scorchedmy throat.

            Laurenhitched up her dress so she could cross her legs. “A little more than ahundred, actually. The jury was generous with punitive damages.”

            Iforced myself to look away from her slender ankles. “I bet you went after theattorneys and accountants, too.” I set the tumbler down hard on my desk. Amberliquid sloshed over my hand.

            “Thelaw allows—”

            “Tohell with the law! The investors got back morethan they put up. And they’re no less greedy than the professionals you’re sohot to put in prison. Most people wouldn’t go near these deals if they didn’tthink they’d get a big tax write-off, plus beat the market. Why not bereasonable? Dial it back after things are more or less even again, go after real bad guys.”

            “Ido! Lawyers and accountants are supposed to be the watchdogs who make sureofferings are legit. And the ones in these deals did more than look the otherway. The promoter was smart, but not that smart. He couldn’t have put the fraudtogether without professional help.”

            Imade a calming motion with my hands, I was determined not to argue with her.Besides, it was an old debate. “Okay, okay, theselawyers and these accountants weredirtbags. You have my blessing to prosecute them.”

            Shegrimaced. “Easier said than done. I barely had enough evidence for a searchwarrant. By the time it was executed, they had shredded all the documents. Ineeded the promoter’s testimony that the attorneys and accountants were in onthe scam from the get-go.”

            Irubbed a thumb against the rubberized band of my watch. “Those guys can be hardto find once they’re in the wind.”

            “Thecoal mines were in Kentucky, so I started there. I went to the town, talked tothe guy’s landlord, the people who leased him office equipment, even thewaitresses at his favorite diner. Wasn’t hard—I was raised in a place likethat. Turns out the guy’s Norwegian, grew up working on a family fishing boat.He immigrated to the States about ten years ago with plans to make it big.”

            “Let’shear it for the American dream!” I took a mouthful of scotch and let it sizzle onmy tongue. I was feeling good again. “He must have played Monopoly when he wasa kid.”

            Laurenglared at me. “I expected him to go back to Europe. But Immigration didn’t havea record of him leaving.”

            “Howabout Canada?”

            “Theysaid he wasn’t there either. So that left Seattle.”

            “Seattle?What made you think—”

            “Whenwe went through his office in Kentucky, we found a bunch of blank Seattlepostcards and some country-western CDs in the back of a desk drawer. Apparentlyhe missed them when he cleaned out the place.”
            “Youthought he came here because of some postcards?”

            “Don’tgive me a hard time, Tommy. It was all I had to go on. The databases—”

            “Iwas wondering when you’d get to those.” I heard that edge in my voice again.“Do you feds even bother with warrants anymore? Or do you just whisper the wordterrorist and wait for the sysop tohand over the master password?”

            Lauren’sexpression told me she wasn’t in the mood for my privacy-rights rant. “Oh, wegot the password all right, but the databases were a bust. There was nothing inthe computers—no driver’s license, no address, no credit cards.”

            Iwas impressed by Lauren’s quarry. Despite disposable cell phones, falseidentities for sale on the Internet, and banks that were more interested infees than references, it was harder than ever to live off the grid. “So whatdid you do?”

            Sheflashed that luminous smile. “Drove around in the rain, hyped on caffeine. Iwent to bars, hotels, used car lots—anywhere he might have gone or donebusiness. Nada. It was as though he’dnever been here.”

            Despitemyself, I was getting interested. “Why not give up?”

            “Ialmost did. I was running out of places to look. But I knew—I just knew—he was here. The local Norwegiancommunity, the climate, the fishing, the postcards”—she ticked each one off ona finger—“made Seattle the most logical place for him to go to ground.” Sheshook her head. “Thank goodness for clams.”

            “Whatdo clams have to do with this?”

            “Iwas eating lunch at this tiny joint downtown—”

            “Theone next to the bridge? You ever have the chowder?”

            “EveryTuesday. White, with extra crackers.” She ducked behind a grin. “And an ElysianFields Pale Ale, no glass.”

            A noontime beer should be the least of yourworries, Lauren. For half a second, I wondered if she would go to lunchwith me. Maybe if I called it a bonvoyage thing . . .

            “Anyway,I was eating on the patio when the ferry came in from Bainbridge Island. That’swhen it hit me.”

            “Aboat,” I said.

            “Aboat,” she repeated, clearly relishing the memory. “And I had five days to findit before I had to start working another case.”

            “TheState of Washington must have a hundred thousand registered vessels. How didyou think you were going to come up with the right one in time?”

            “Makethat three hundred thousand, plus transients.” Lauren flicked invisible lintfrom her dress. “Still, it was no problem.”

            “Okay,I’ll bite. How did you find the needle in a third of a million boats?”

            “Didyou know the DMV is in charge of maritime registrations? It handlesthem just like cars. I sat in a back office and scrolled through the listingsfor vessels over thirty feet—the DMV guy said that would be the minimum sizefor someone to live on. I found it the second day.” Her tone was only slightlysmug.

            “Hecouldn’t have been stupid enough to put his name down as the owner.”

            Laurenlooked offended. “Of course not. Besides, I didn’t look at the owner registry.I figured title would be held by some offshore corporation. I went through thelist of boat names instead.”

            Boat names? Why would you do that?”

            “Becausemen aren’t sentimental, except when they are.” She looked at my watch. “Theycan’t hide the things that matter to them.”

            Itugged my cuff over the gold dial. “So did he go for a name from the oldcountry? Or something dumb, like OtherPeople’s Money or Sucker Bet?”

            “Wrong,and wrong. But I knew I’d found the right one as soon as I saw it.” Shegrinned, and I half-expected to see canary feathers sticking out of her mouth.“The Loretta Lynn.”

            “Isn’tthat a country-western singer?”

            “Yougot it. Born and raised in Butcher Hollow, Kentucky.”

            “Whywould this guy name his boat after her? He’s Swedish.”

            “Norwegian.”Lauren hugged herself happily. “Remember when I told you the coal mines were inKentucky? Well, guess what town they’re in.”

            “You’vegot to be kidding. I still don’t seehow the hell you made the connection with Loretta Lynn. I didn’t think you werea country-western buff.”

            “I’mnot. But the CDs he’d left in his office were all hers, except for—here’s thegood part—the soundtrack from CoalMiner’s Daughter, the movie they made about her life.”

            Thepride in her voice was beginning to grate. “So then what did you do?”

            “Therecords said the Loretta Lynn was aconverted trawler. The DMV guy said that meant it ran on diesel. I calledaround to the fuel docks until I found the one that knew the boat. The gasjockey ID’d an email photo of my guy, and the Harbor Patrol took me out there.Two days later, I was waiting when he showed up with empty tanks and a grocerylist.”

            “Isuppose you called the media for the perp walk,” I said into my glass. Thetumbler was almost empty again, and I considered refilling it.

            “Ofcourse.” She almost purred the words. “You know I love the look of a man in amonogrammed shirt and handcuffs.”

            “Yeah,those initials come in real handy when it’s time to sort prison laundry.”

            Thecorner of her mouth twitched. “Always the clever one, Tommy.”

            Lookingout the window, I could see the interior of my office reflected endlesslyacross the skyline, illuminated boxes filled with bland furniture,screen-savered computers, and generic wall art. As I scanned the warren ofother buildings, I half-expected to see someone like me looking back. It mademe uncomfortable, and I pulled my gaze back to Lauren.

            “Sowhy did you stay?” I fiddled with the thick clasp on my watch—opening it,snapping it shut, opening it again. The diamonds winked at me. “In Seattle, Imean.”

            Herreply was quiet, measured. “I met you, Tommy.”

            Istopped playing with my watch.

            Laurengot up from her chair.

            “Assumingthat ridiculous sundial on your wrist is correct, I better get going,” shesaid. “One of the secretaries let slip that part of tonight’s program includesa small celebration in my honor.”

            Thewords jumped out before I could stop them. “A celebration?”

            Hereyes drilled into mine. Anticipation shimmered off her.

            “I’mleaving Seattle, too.”

            Ifelt something flutter in my chest, forced my eyebrows up in feigned surprise.

            “You’relooking at the new DOJ liaison with the local SEC office.” Lauren leanedforward and placed her hands flat on the desktop. Her fingers were long andtapered, the nails filed into perfect ovals. “In Boca Raton.”

            Thechange in her demeanor was subtle but unmistakable. Damn. Sooner or later, we always came to this point in theconversation.

            “Youmay be clever, Tommy, but you’re not clever enough.” Her voice was as soft ascashmere, but underneath I could feel the chill of steel. “I’m going to getyou. Three years left on the securities fraud SOL. And, of course, there’sNick. There’s no statute of limitations on murder.”

            Evenwhen I held the winning hand, she still made me feel like I was chasing thepot. Had I refilled my glass twice or three times? I passed a damp palm over myface.

            “Thisisn’t one of your coal deals.” My tongue felt slightly too big for my mouth.“For starters, the REIT investors’ lawsuit was tossed.”

            Laurenblew out a dismissive breath. “Plaintiff’s lawyer jumped the gun. Doesn’taffect the criminal prosecution.”

            Lack of evidence—that’s what the judgesaid when he granted my lawyer’s motion to dismiss. If the plaintiffs didn’thave enough proof to get past more likelythan not, how are you going to make it all the way to beyond a reasonable doubt?”

            Thedetermination was plain on her face. “I’ll find the evidence.”

            By any means necessary. I tapped mywatch. “You know as well as I do, the more time that passes, the more memoriesfade, the more documents are lost, the more people decide to put all thisbehind them and move on. As for what happened to my partner . . .” I put on thesad expression I’d used for the reporters. “Carjacking gone wrong. Realtragedy.”

            “Fourthousand investors lost everything in your REIT, Tommy. Four thousand. Already there have been two suicides, plus God knowswhat other damage—divorce, derailed retirements, ruined careers—” Laurenpaused, bit down on her lip.

            But it wasn’t my fault, I wanted to tellher. I’d been in hock up to my eyeballs to those deranged Russian bookies. They“let me” pay off my marker by washing their gambling profits through the REIT.I didn’t know they were going to rip off the investors, too.

            “Andwe both know Nick wasn’t killed by any carjacker.” Her voice had dropped to awhisper, and I had to lean forward to hear her. Our faces were so close, Icould see the pulse beating at her temple and smell her perfume. Definitely grapefruit. Maybe a littlecypress?

            “He’sdead because he decided to take the immunity offer and testify.” She nearlyspat the words. “Against you.”

            Also not my fault. Since when did mypartner the schmoozer ever bother to look into the mechanics of a deal? Nick’sjob was to bring in the business, not run it. When he stumbled onto the moneylaundering, I had no choice. Otherwise the Russians would have left me lying onthat cold concrete floor.

            Laurenpushed herself off the desk. “Run to Florida, run halfway around the world. Itwon’t make a bit of difference. You’ll never be able to put enough distanceortime—between us. More search warrants, new witnesses—I’ll plant the damnevidence if I need to—I’ll get theproof I need. Then it’ll be like that hideous watch of yours was turned back toyesterday.”

            Herlook of distaste stung. I dropped my eyes to thedigital recorder in the drawer. I imagined I could hear its motor humming. Everybody’s onthe run from something, Lauren. Or should be.

            “I’llsee you in Florida, Tommy. Don’t get too comfortable in your new place. Beforeyou know it, you’ll be moving to another gated community—the kind where Securitycarries pump shotguns instead of cell phones, and the bars on the windowsaren’t just for show.”

            Witha rustle of blue silk, she was gone.

            I’ll see you in Florida, Tommy.

            Theblack October rain beat against the window. I checked my watch, drained thelast of the scotch, and pushed back my chair. Ipicked up the recorder from the drawer, turned it off, and dropped itinto my pocket.

            Theirony of where I was headed hit me in the hallway, and kept me laughing all theway to the elevator. I punched the Downbutton.

            Gallettiwouldn’t have offered a talk-and-walk on the Russian thing if he suspectedanything about Nick. Lauren must have been keeping her cards close. Made itsweet for me. Once her overeager—or dumb—boss put blanket immunity on thetable, I had my Get Out of Jail Freecard. If I took his deal, I’d be untouchable for the murder.

            Asthe elevator doors slid open on the parking garage, I thought back to thatnight. I hadn’t expected Nick to struggle, let alone rip the watch from mywrist. The Rolex had fallen into a crack in the cement floor beside one of thesupport beams, wedged out of reach. I averted my eyes as I walked past thespot. What the hell had possessed me to engrave the damn thing?

            MyDNA, Nick’s blood . . . The feds had already been over the scene. But Laurenwas talking about a new search warrant. If she found the watch before Idisappeared into witness protection, my deal with her boss would evaporate. I’dbe facing the needle instead of twenty years.

            The gray Buick was parked next to the exit ramp, its enginerunning, in one of the spaces with a good view of the main entrance. Theair was thick with the stink of exhaust. I could heartires swishing through the puddles at street level.

            Islid into the back seat and rested my head against the plump leather. Gallettieagerly twisted around in the driver’s seat. No doubt he’d seen Lauren leave.Jesus, the guy had it in for her so bad, he was going to be late to his ownroast.

            Ourlast meeting had not gone well. He’d moaned about my coming up empty-handedagain. I’d dropped the bomb about my Florida move.

            “Weboth know witness protection is gonna stick me in some place like Oshfart,North Dakota,” I’d told him when he finished squawking.“I want to see sun and beach and girls in bikinis one last time. Besides, isn’tthis all moot, like you lawyers say? If Lauren’s moving to Florida, she’s notyour problem anymore, right?”

            Hehadn’t been able to hide the ambition and spite in his hooded eyes. Gallettiwasn’t gunning for Lauren because she crossed theline. He wanted to take her down because every month she won more cases,more headlines, more fans. She wouldn’t be the first prosecutor to parlay thoseinto a glory ride. But it was a trip her boss wanted to take himself.

I let my eyelids closeas his voice once again bore into my skull, more excruciating than thehangover I knew I’d have in the morning.

            Heasked me the question.

            Howmany had it been this time? Two—no, three—counts of prosecutorial misconduct,any one of which was enough to deliver Lauren’s head—and career—to Galletti ona silver platter.

“Nothing.” I shifted inthe seat. The recorder jabbed me in the rib. “Didn’t even get a chance to turnit on.”

            Igot out of the car and went back to my office. I sat down at my desk, took thewhiskey bottle out of the drawer, and poured slowly until my glass was fullagain. I thumbed the Rewind button onthe recorder and turned up the volume so I could hear her voice over the rain.

I’ll see youin Florida, Tommy.

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The Flourine Murder by Camille Minichino - written version

                                                        The Fluorine Murder


There's nothing special about a third wedding anniversary, unless your best friend has been waiting three years to get you to celebrate. Deprived of the pleasure of planning my wedding, Rose Galigani wouldn't stop nagging until Matt and I agreed to some form of public display.

"It's leather," Rose told me, as we sat on lawn chairs facing the geranium-filled back yard of the mortuary she ran with her husband.

"Leather?"

"The traditional gift for third anniversaries is leather."

"Who else knows this?" I asked.

"It's a hard theme to deal with, but maybe we can work up something around luggage. We can have tiny suitcases for favors, but that means you'll have to take a trip right after the wedding, Gloria."

I checked her expression. Teasing or serious? It was never possible to tell for sure. Rose didn't ask for much in life, other than continued good business for her funeral home, which was pretty much guaranteed, and the freedom to provide a meaningful social life for those she loved.

"We agreed to a small party," I reminded her. "Not a full-blown wedding. We're already married. And we're not twenty years old."

Homicide detective Matt Gennaro and I had run off, if fifty-somethings can be said to run, for a weekend in Vermont and had come back married. Thus, the delayed consumer-approved show of bliss.

Rose snapped her fingers. "A Unity Candle. That's what you need," she said. "They do that at all the weddings these days. The mothers in each family light a small candle. Then the bride and groom use those flames to light a big candle in the middle, to symbolize the coming together of the two families."

I could have sworn her eyes started to fill up.

"Our mothers are dead, Rose. Matt has one sister; I have one cousin. It will look silly."

"Maybe you're right, Gloria. But we need candles. How about just one big one?" She held her hands to indicate a circumference of about nine inches. If we lit a candle that size, it would alert every smoke detector in its path.

As Rose's hands grew farther and farther apart, the candle expanding to larger and larger proportions, the shrill whine of a siren filled the night air, still humid at eight o'clock in the evening. I heard a loud honk, then saw the flash of a fire engine zipping past on Tuttle Street.

For a minute I thought they'd come to extinguish the flame on our imaginary Unity Candle.

#

The fire was one of the biggest in the history of Revere, Massachusetts. It was also the fifth major blaze in the small city in less than a month, which was five times the usual number. The first four fires had leveled empty buildings, sweeping through an abandoned elementary school, a set of vacant apartments in a long-ago public housing project, a deserted church hall, and a car dealership that had gone out of business.

This fifth and latest fire was different in one significant way. The inferno had hit a sprawling, operating nursing home across town from Rose and Frank Galigani's mortuary. The box-shaped building, which had been a general hospital many years ago, was full to capacity with patients at various levels of disability, from people in a doctor-recommended program of physical therapy, to those needing around the clock care.

This fire had also claimed a life. The Revere Journal reported that the body of a young woman, as yet unidentified, had been found in the rubble.

The residents of the home had been moved to safety, and all members of the staff were accounted for. The fire had broken out well past visiting hours.

So who was the dead woman?

Not to mention—who was trying to level Revere?

#

I learned a little more when a call to Matt's cell phone interrupted our regular Sunday morning brunch in the Galiganis' beautifully appointed dining room. Matt's and my dining room, by contrast, was still a work in progress even after three years.

"Looks like we're going to need your help again," Matt told me when he clicked his phone off. "Fluorine came up in the investigation."

"Is that the deceased woman's name?" Rose asked.

"It's the ninth element of the periodic table," her husband, Frank, said, polishing off his second home-baked croissant and earning a nod of approval from me for his science literacy. "And we know who's the expert on all things science."

"Dr. Gloria Lamerino," Rose said, using her best drum-roll voice.

I did enjoy my association with the Revere Police Department, which called me in as a consultant whenever science was involved in a case. Revere was home to the Charger Street Laboratory, a major research facility with more than seven thousand scientists and support staff. I often found myself in the position of interpreting and explaining their work to my husband and his department.

"Fluorine. I'm on it," I said. "What else do we know?"

"The woman's death has been ruled a homicide," Matt said. "The autopsy report says she was dead before the fire got to her."

"No smoke in her lungs, I'm guessing," Frank said, breaking the silence that followed the news of a murder in our town and the senseless ending of a human life, whether we knew the victim or not.

"That's a big part of it," Matt said. "No inhalation. Looks like her body was dumped at the fire site. The only identifying mark is a tattoo that looks like a coin or a seal of some kind."

"The tattoo survived the fire?" I asked.

I'd addressed Matt, but Frank raised his hand to answer, as if we were all back in school. If I was supposed to know "all things science," Frank, the veteran embalmer, knew "all things dead body."

"Tattoo ink is embedded in deep scar tissue," Frank began. "Even if a body is badly decomposed, a pathologist can just wipe away the sloughed skin and there's the tattoo as pristine as the day it was made."

"Not the first time I've seen it," Matt said. "In this case, the victim's body wasn't destroyed by the fire, so there's a decent image left of the tattoo. They tell me they can't read the writing, but there's a pretty clear representation of a woman with some kind of crown."

We cleared away juice glasses and craned our necks to view the photograph Matt pulled out of his pocket, Columbo-style, and set on the table. The circular graphic, on the victim's lower back, looked like a collage of several themes—as if the Statue of Liberty were sitting in a cluttered garden. Draped in fabric, the faux Miss Liberty was holding what might have been a large-diameter candle, and at her feet were what looked like an urn, farming equipment, and some indefinable shrubbery.

"It's not an American coin or any common foreign currency," Matt said. "Too bad we don't have one of those magic computers where we scan this in and some enormous database with every image from the beginning of time clicks away and then suddenly blinks 'MATCH MATCH'."

Frank helped Matt out with blinking hand gestures. I knew he was trying to prevent Matt from launching into a speech about how inadequate real-life forensics labs were compared to the hi-tech environments we saw on television shows.

Rose took us off the topic with her own analysis. "There weren't even any injuries in the other fires and now we have a fatality. Do they think this was set by a different person?"

"No, there are too many other similarities," Matt said. "For one, the accelerant is different every time, but never very sophisticated. He's used everything from a cigarette to a welding spark to ordinary fuel."

"Is he trying to make it look like different people were involved?"

"The RFD doesn't think so. The blazes have one strange feature in common."

I was already on my way to retrieve the notepad and pen from my purse. Matt kindly waited.

"Go ahead." I smiled, pen poised.

"Okay, the RFD equipment gets there in record time, of course, but in each case there's been evidence that someone got there before they did."

"The arsonist," Frank offered, with a chuckle.

"Yeah," Matt said. "But also someone who tried to put the fire out."

"Amateurs with fire extinguishers?" I asked. "Like someone who follows fires? Aren't there people who actually get a thrill watching fires?"

"There are plants called fire followers," Rose said. "There was this case where a plant that hadn't been seen in a location for a thousand years suddenly bloomed again after an enormous fire swept through the area."

"How?" I asked, amused at myself for succumbing to one of Rose's trivia lessons, irrelevant as it seemed to our discussion.

"The temperature of the soil increased and the fire burned away some stuff that wasn't friendly to the plant. I read about it in a plant book." Rose and I obviously frequented different parts of the bookstore. "Also, I think fire symbolically brings things together, as well as being destructive."

Matt and Frank gave her funny looks, but I knew she was talking about the Unity Candle she saw as the centerpiece of our anniversary party.

"We know lots of people who have scanners and intercept police and fire calls. John is one of them," Frank said.

"He's a reporter," Rose said, as if she needed to defend their second son from his father.

"Badge bunnies," Matt said, a grin forming. "That's what we call people, especially women, who follow cops around."

Should I be jealous? Probably not, I decided. Matt had been a celibate (according to him) widower when we got married, and I had no reason to think he'd go astray now.

"What do they call fire groupies?" Rose asked.

"Hose bunnies," Frank said, then blushed. Our usual conversation was singularly free of double entendres. Something about the fire talk had sparked a different kind of repartee.

"Good one," Rose said, letting him off the hook.

"Who do the firefighters think is helping out at the scenes?" I asked Matt.

"Up to now, it's been impossible to say. But finally we have an RFD report—whoever is getting there before the engines is using a variety of different kinds of fire extinguisher material. There's nothing the RFD has ever seen before, but they always contain fluorine."

Aha. The fluorine connection, at last. I thought back to industrial research I'd read about in general science magazines.

"It's not that strange to have a fluorine compound in a flame suppressant. Early attempts wreaked havoc on the ozone layer, so they had to go back to the drawing board. I'd have to do a little research, but I believe the latest products with perfluorinated compounds work better."

"I remember when we just used water," Frank said, gilding the lily by adding butter to a third croissant. It was hard to figure how he and Rose were the trim, fit ones in this foursome.

"Water puts out fires but it ruins most materials that it falls on," I reminded him. "Imagine a room with expensive and important computer equipment drowning in water. It's tricky to find something that will put out a fire but still leave breathable air for people to survive."

"Unless they're dead to begin with," Matt said, bringing us back to the case at hand.

"Where exactly does Gloria come in?" Rose asked.

Good question. "I might remind you that I'm a retired physicist, not a chemist. We deal with simple atoms and simple reactions. Once we get into the complicated alphabet soup compounds like PEIK—that's perfluoroethylisopropylketone—or PMIK—that's perfluoromethylisopropylketone—I'm lost."

"You don't sound lost," Rose said.

"She never does," Matt said.

"Would you like me to introduce you to the Charger Street chemists who are working on fluorine-based flame suppressants?" I asked.

My loving husband of the Year of Leather gave me a vigorous nod. "You know the language, which puts you way ahead of most of us on the force. And right now we're going on the assumption that the fires and the murder are related."

"I know the fluorine research team fairly well," I said. "I attend their seminars now and then. I'm sure they'll be a big help in figuring this out." Matt raised his eyebrows and gave me a sad look. It took a few seconds to register. "What is it?"

"You might not be happy to hear."

"The Fire Department thinks the fluorine chemists are racing to the fires so they can test their formulas?" I could hardly keep my voice steady.

"Or … " Matt said, completing his sentence with a shrug.

"Could they be deliberately … ?" Frank was wide-eyed.

Rose gasped. "You don't think they're … ?"

No one dared say the words in my presence—the notion that the scientists could be setting fires themselves, to use in their research. My husband and friends knew my extreme protectionist attitude, wanting to hold onto the concept that scientific research was carried out by men and women whose motives were always pure and altruistic.

"I'm assuming the RFD is investigating, too," Rose said.

"The murder is ours," Matt said, not meaning to sound so callous, I was sure. "They've interviewed the Charger Street chemists." He turned to me. "I have to be honest, Gloria. The RFD suspects the chemists, but they can't prove anything."

"Suspects them of what?" I hadn't meant to raise my voice, but no one seemed surprised.

Matt scratched his head. I could tell it was bad news. "Everything."

Rose stifled another gasp, turning it into a cough.

I took a deep breath. It didn't help much. "So I'm supposed to get evidence against fellow scientists? To show that they go around setting fires and then experiment on putting them out? And that they may have killed someone in the process?"

I took my husband's silence as a "yes."

I tuned out as my three brunch companions went off on another subject. I needed to make some notes on the fluorine researchers at the Lab. No one said I couldn't try to clear their names. I left the dining room table and settled myself one room away on a kitchen stool. I heard no protests.

#

One of the best things about being retired was that I no longer had the pressure of knowing what was being done every waking hour in my own field of spectroscopy. Instead of focusing on one narrow field, I could dabble in every area that held interest for me, reading books and magazines and attending seminars across the board in physics and chemistry departments. It was nice to listen to everyone's problems—not enough temporal resolution with the new scanning equipment, too many unknowns in a set of equations—and not have to solve them.

I wrote Stan Nolan's name first. He was the leader of the fluorine research group, nearing retirement and eager to have one last paper accepted in the Journal of Fluorine Chemistry. I pictured his thinning gray hair and the same dark green cardigan I'd seen him in at every meeting.

Peter Barnett and Teresa Verrico were the new post-docs in the group. The two young people seemed to get along well, their only rivalry stemming from an ongoing chess game, played at times in the chemistry department lounge and at times on line. Peter played up his nerdy reputation by wearing a pocket protector.

Teresa was the reason I attended so many chemistry meetings. She'd gotten her degree at the University of California, like me, and we'd met at a reunion of UC science alums now residing in Massachusetts. Unlike me, Teresa missed the sunny west coast. I let her moan about the humidity of a New England summer and helped her buy a snow shovel for the winter.

Carson Little was the heir apparent to replace Stan as the group's leader. He was affectionately called "Little Boy" not only for his surname and small stature but because he was an avid student of mid-twentieth century atomic science. Carson's personality was a match to that of Little Boy, the first atomic bomb, in many ways—he was volatile, energetic, and unpredictable.

The last member of the team was an on-again off-again young temp who handled the clerical work for as many hours per week as the budget (also on-again off-again) allowed. Danielle Laurent was a French exchange student in environmental sciences at a Boston college.

I remembered going out for coffee after a seminar, with Teresa, Peter, and Carson. I didn't think it strange that Stan and Danielle declined, saying they had work to do. They went off, Stan in his long cardigan and Danielle in a sweater that barely reached her waist.

Then I was treated to the workings of the chem department rumor mill.

"May-December," Carson Little had said, with a wink in their direction. True to his nickname, he mimicked the sound and gestures of firecrackers going off.

Peter and Teresa laughed and nodded, as if everyone who was anyone knew of the relationship. It was news to me.

"You mean Stan and Danielle are an item?" I asked, realizing there must have been a cooler way to say it. I was also sorry I'd encouraged the banter.

They all nodded. "Nothing wrong with it," Teresa said, trying to keep her long, curly hair from dipping into her cappuccino. "They're uncommitted and they're both adults."

"Barely," Peter responded. "Danielle is twelve."

"And Stan is one hundred and twelve," Carson said. "With a thing for French, uh, accents." He grinned.

"And she has a thing for green cardigans," Peter said.

"I have cardigans," Carson said.

The jokes and the topic had gone on longer than I'd been comfortable with, ending with the two men accusing each other of being jealous of Stan's "luck" and Teresa and me rolling our eyes.

Rumors and jealousies aside, I couldn't imagine any of the fluorine group as arsonists, let alone murderers. But I had to admit that there was no telling what a dedicated scientist would do if she or he thought it would mean a breakthrough in the field. Each time I took on a case where scientists were suspect, I held my breath, hoping the guilt would fall on someone other than a scientist—the budget director, a mailroom or cafeteria worker, a personnel rep—anyone but a person trained in sifting through the mysteries of the universe.

I looked forward to accompanying Matt on the interviews and resolved to keep an open mind. I was ready to return to my brunch companions at Rose's dining room table, now fully stocked with chocolates and mints, as if the pastries hadn't qualified as dessert.

The sooner we got going, the sooner I could help find the true culprits and clear my colleagues.

I sat down and tapped my pen on my notepad. "When do we start?" I asked Matt.

"First we're all going to the movies," he said.

#

"I should have known you'd never take us to see George Clooney," Rose said.

The four of us sat in front of a low-end television/VCR combination in a conference room at the Revere police station. It made sense for Matt to invite Rose and Frank to the view the latest crime scene video, and not just because they were our best friends: No two people in the city knew as many of its citizens as they did. Not only did they run the largest mortuary in town with their older son, Robert, but they had their fingers on the legal pulse through his lawyer wife, Karla, and on anything newsworthy through John, the reporter with a police scanner. Whatever was left over came to them through their high school teacher daughter, Mary Catherine. They were up on all stages in life and death in Revere.

"Maybe Clooney is on this tape," Matt said, to a chorus of disbelieving chuckles.

The video was home grown. One of the neighbors across the street from the nursing home had rushed out with his video camera when he smelled smoke.

"We used to just take pictures of First Communions and weddings. Now people record any kind of disaster," Rose said.

I caught Matt's eye and we smiled at each other: Did Rose realize she'd put weddings in the disaster category?

"And we're throwing everything up on YouTube," Frank said, tsk-tsking.

"Was the cameraman the one who called in the fire?" I asked.

Matt shook his head. "We don't know who called it in. The voice on the dispatcher's tape sounded like a robot. We're assuming it was one of the would-be firefighters and/or the arsonist, and/or the murderer."

"All of whom may be the same person," Frank said.

Matt gave a resigned nod and pushed PLAY on the remote.

Even on a very low-definition government-issue television set, the footage on the fire was startling. Bright red and orange flames shot out from the old wooden structure. There was no audio, but I was sure I could hear crackling and popping. It had been a mild night, without the usual ocean breeze. I wondered if the arsonist had chosen the evening deliberately, to have more control of the fire, or if the choice was governed by some other factor. Many offenders, I knew, committed crimes on dates that had meaning for them, or followed a mental rhythm that no one else was privy to.

My amateur profiling would get us nowhere. I focused on the scene before me. I wrote down a few phrases and thoughts, noting the uniformed nursing home attendants pushing people in wheelchairs, the crumbling window and doorframes, and a gathering crowd, some of whom pitched in to help move people away from the flaming building. The firefighters arrived pretty quickly and took control of the crowd and the soaring, mesmerizing flames. It was hard to tell the gender of the hatchet-carrying, masked, helmeted professionals who ran toward the conflagration.

We all sat back and exhaled deeply as figures in neon yellow-green stripes worked the scene. We'd been at the edges of our seats and, apparently, holding our breaths as if we'd been there at the site of the crackling blaze.

"What are we looking for?" I asked Matt.

"Anything that looks odd. The RFD has already interviewed everyone they could that night. They always look for people who are at more than one scene, or at a fire away from their neighborhood. But this is a murder crime scene, too, and you never know what new pairs of eyes will catch after the fact."

Within the first two minutes, Rose and Frank ID'd at least six people, including a retired postal worker who'd just lost his wife to cancer and the weekend clerk in the flower shop across from St. Anthony's Church. The trick was to get them to hold the ID to a line or two and not give us the family history going back two generations, as they did for deli owners Carol and George Zollo, before we could stop them.

Something occurred to me after the first viewing, but I couldn't pin it down. "Can you play the first few minutes again?" I asked Matt. He rewound the tape and this time I watched only one part of the screen, focusing on the upper right, where I knew the niggling bit was. The flames overloaded the camera, resulting in poor definition of the building parts and objects on the ground. Nothing was as good as the human eye as far as being able to adjust to different intensities of light in real time.

"What are you looking for, Gloria?" Rose asked.

"Stop," I said, too loudly, causing Rose to jump. Matt tried to get a good still frame but the picture was marred by noise and tracking bars. I was surprised that a person interested enough to take videos like this didn't use a digital camera. Matt finally zeroed in on a decent frame. I pointed to a large, rolling two-level lab cart I'd seen in passing the first time. The cart was almost out of range of the camera, but the shape was very familiar to me. Several pieces of apparatus were piled onto its shelves.

"What is it?" Matt asked.

"There's your unofficial equipment," I said.

In a flash, our four heads were angled for viewing the screen up close. I was grateful that no one pointed out where lab carts were readily available. In restaurants, I thought, in desperation.

"Can you tell exactly what's on the cart?" Matt asked.

I moved my chair still closer to the screen and squinted, without gaining much in clarity. "It's hard to tell, but I think we're seeing ordinary testing apparatus—a cone calorimeter and a smoke density chamber. Maybe a blanket tester, too. It's the kind of apparatus used by fire safety professionals to test various kinds of heat response." And you'd never find it in a restaurant, I thought, my heart sinking.

"What do you think is going on?" Rose asked. Throughout the viewing, Rose had used tissues to wipe down the small conference table that also held the television system. She'd finished and now wadded up the tissues and handed them to Frank, who tossed them into a corner wastebasket. It looked like choreography, forty wedded years in the making.

"Someone is testing the flammability of materials, for one thing," I said. "Probably using materials from the nursing home, like clothing, bedding, draperies, upholstery. Anything that's manufactured with flammability in mind."  

"That could be an ordinary fire extinguisher," Frank said, indicating a blurry cylindrically shaped object.

"I see that. But what if it isn't an ordinary one?" Matt asked. "It's piled on there with all that other obviously special apparatus."

I blew out a deep breath. I had to admit it—this frame pointed to the Charger Street scientists as surely as if the lab logo had been visible on the cart.

I had an idea that I hoped would redeem the scientists at least somewhat.

"Let's do one more bit of analysis."

It had been years since I'd been inside the nursing home—the last time was before an aunt died there, more than ten years ago. It was a good thing I had a resource. "Can you give us a sketch of the layout of the home?" I asked Rose.

"Sure. What's this about?"

I handed her a pad and Rose went to work without needing an answer. The project took only a couple of minutes, during which I kept my head down, unable to face Matt, and, therefore, the sad music I was hearing.

"Not bad for a funeral director," I said, tapping Rose's finished sketch. "It's just as I thought. The residents' rooms are in the middle of the building. In the back we have the pharmacy, the kitchen, and the recreation room. That's where the fire was started, right, Matt?"

Matt nodded. "I see where you're going. It's as if the arsonist wanted to make sure no one was hurt. He started the fire as far away from the residents as possible."

"Maybe he just didn't want to be seen," Rose suggested.

"I don't think that's it," I said, running my pen along the middle of Rose's rectangle-cum-building. "I noticed on the video that there are more trees, plus lots of shrubbery around the central part of the building, so patients can look out their windows at some greenery, I suppose. It would be easier to hide there and start the fire, whereas the back is pretty bare and open."

"I get your point," Frank said. "It sure looks like he picked a spot away from the residents, and knew the staff would have time to remove them safely."

In other words, scientists are not monsters.

"In a way it fits the pattern of the previous fires," Matt said. "The other buildings were unoccupied and this one was empty by the time the fire took hold completely."

"Except for the woman," Rose said.

"It must have been an accident" I said, my voice weak and my resolve fading.

We took a moment to remember the murdered girl with the telling tattoo. If we could only figure out what it was telling us.

#

As was typical before any important meeting, Matt took his notes to bed the night before our scheduled visit to Charger Street. I wondered if anyone in the fluorine group was doing the same.

"Pushing that cart around on its wheels could be just a one-person job. Or they all could have been involved." Matt said. "The question is whether there's a murderer among them. Premeditated or not."

I was glad Matt didn't expect an answer to his musings. The case was upsetting me enough as it was.

"What's our strategy?" I asked him. "Do we pretend we're just there to tap into their fluorine expertise or do we have the handcuffs ready?" I hadn't meant to sound so peeved.

He leaned over and rubbed my neck. "It's not personal," he said, in that voice that would have made him a wonderful doctor.

"I know. I promise I'll be open."

Matt was kind enough not to mention that it would be a first for me.

#

Matt and I walked with a security escort down one of the few unclassified hallways, our visitor badges resting on our chests. I'd been here often, but with the anticipation of learning about the thermodynamic properties of fluorine compounds or the latest in heat transfer analysis.

The Charger Street Lab was its own city in many ways, its relationship to Revere much like that called "town and gown," when a large university was located in an otherwise small city. The Lab had several cafeterias and classrooms, a research library, a fully equipped gym, an Olympic-size swimming pool, and its own infirmary.

Usually I'd walk in on a busy group—Stan setting up the display screen for the monthly presentations, Carson and Danielle moving chairs around, Teresa and Peter arranging pads, pencils, and, best of all, fresh pastry from Luberto's downtown bakery.

This morning, the room was empty. No scientists, and no pastry.

"I'll let them know you're here," our escort said, without a trace of warmth.

"I wonder why the cold treatment," I said, when he'd left, failing to keep sarcasm out of my tone.  

Matt was smart enough to forego comment. Instead he walked around the small room checking out the photographs on the wall. One side was lined with depictions of complex molecules. "Are these all fluorine compounds?" he asked. He knew how to distract me.  

I nodded. "Fluorine is much too active an element not to be in a compound. Those are all the basics." I walked along the wall with him, naming the few that I recognized on sight.

"This place smells," Matt said, with an exaggerated sniff. "Like acid, or something worse. Not like physics departments, which always have a pleasant aroma."

I smiled, loving his attempts to soothe me.

We moved to the other side of the room where photographs of humans took precedence, some formal, others candids from conference gatherings. One shot was from the group picnic only a month ago. I was glad now that I hadn't been able to attend; I felt I didn't belong with this team any longer.

The door opened and the fluorine research group filed in. I heard a soft "hey" from Teresa, but nothing from the three men. They took seats along one side of the table; Matt and I sat across from them. The arrangement looked too much like a police line-up to suit me.

Stan, in a white lab coat, clutched his special coffee mug with a drawing of the molecular structure of caffeine. Teresa and Carson both looked at me with suspicion. I felt I'd betrayed our friendship by showing up with a police officer. Peter wore his nerdiest frown, looking down on the conference room table as if he were studying chess moves.

I drew in my breath. Danielle was missing. I sincerely hoped she was shopping, and not … I couldn't go there.

Matt cleared his throat. "Good morning, everyone. Thanks for meeting us." He looked down at his notebook, and took attendance in as pleasant a way as possible. I figured this was the most benign looking group of suspects he'd seen lately.

"Where's Danielle?" I asked. "Is she in today?"

I'd been looking at Stan, but it was Teresa who answered. "I haven't seen her this morning. As you know, she's a student and keeps funny hours."

"Does she usually call in and let you know when she's going to be here?" Matt asked.

"Most of the time she'll check to see if there's something special we need her for," Peter said. "But not today."

I thought of a dozen reasons why Danielle didn't call in, from a summer cold to a very long date. Still, my stomach churned.

"We appreciate your taking time to talk to us," Matt told the team. "I'm sure you're all very busy and I'll try to keep this short."

Stan folded his arms across his chest. "Indeed," he said with an almost British accent. Was his dalliance with a friend from across the ocean affecting his speech?

Nods and murmurs of "yeah" and "right" rippled across the row of researchers.

Matt's standard interview techniques ran through my mind. Rule one: Give the person time to answer even if there are periods of silence. A guilty person has a harder time with silence than an innocent one. A guilty person talks more, in general, often asking for a question to be repeated or shifting blame elsewhere.

I kept quiet while Matt reviewed the information he had on the fires and on the unidentified murder victim. The team looked bored.

Not exactly enthralled myself, I looked around the room again at the familiar photographs. My gaze landed on a framed enlargement, showing Danielle in front of an official-looking building. A French embassy?

At this distance, a large gold seal stood out against the white stone of the building. A queasy feeling took over my insides. I pulled my iTouch onto my lap, careful not to disrupt the interactions of the group, such as they were.

My fingers flew through links from my search engine until I got a close-up of the Seal of France.

And of the murder victim's tattoo.

No wonder I'd thought of the Statue of Liberty when I saw the photo of the tattoo. The crown with seven arches was the same, both associated with France. I scanned the online write-up. The personification of Liberty held a fasces, an ancient symbol of authority—not a thick candle, as I'd thought. I must have been channeling Rose and her Unity Candle when I'd first seen the blurred image of the tattoo.

My heart was heavy. It seemed clear that the murder victim was Danielle Laurent. It didn't help that her killer might have been someone in this room.

Matt's nudge brought me back to the seminar room, where he was asking me a question. I had a feeling it wasn't the first time he'd asked.

 "Gloria? The spectra?"

I did my best to gather my wits. I retrieved a set of printouts from my briefcase—the spectra provided by the arson lab. I spread the sheets along the middle of the table. Familiar peaks and valleys revealed the chemical composition of the five different fire retardants used in the recent blazes.

"We're hoping you can help identify these very complex substances," Matt said, apparently realizing he couldn't count on me to lead the discussion.

"Can't tell," Carson said, arms still folded.

"Could be anything," Peter said, his eyes seeming out of focus.

All we got from Teresa was a shake of her head, which was more than Stan offered.

Matt pushed the printouts closer and waited. Who would break?

"We've been through all of this with the fire department," Carson said, finally. "You should be looking elsewhere. Don't you have a list of known offenders, or something?"

I pushed my distress over Danielle's death to the side. Maybe I could come at this in a different way and catch someone off guard. "I know how it is, these days especially, to get funds for research," I said. "By the time you write up a proposal, wait for the approval and then the funding, you're way behind another lab or even another country." I clucked my tongue in sympathy.

"Throw in a mountain of paperwork and regulations that are updated hourly and you've got an impossible situation," Carson said. "No one on the outside seems to get it."

Stan leaned over and stared down the table at Carson, knocking into his coffee mug, splashing the sleeve of his white lab coat with brown liquid.

Which prompted me to wonder—why was Stan so nervous? And where was his sweater?

I couldn't recall seeing Stan without his trademark cardigan, even in the summer months since the whole facility was kept at a pretty low temperature for the sake of the computers and the equipment.

Things were stacking up against Stan. As the oldest in the group, he'd likely be the most eager to get results and retire on the strength of a groundbreaking paper. Danielle could have been in the wrong place, perhaps trying to end a romance with an improbable future.

On an impulse I stood up. "I need to use the restroom," I told the group. "I'll be right back."

Matt gave me a questioning look. I knew he didn't believe my excuse for a minute.

#

I headed down the carpeted hallway toward Stan's office. I needed to find his sweater. I pictured my returning to the room triumphant, carrying a charred green cardigan.

A few feet from the office door, I nearly collided with Albert, a janitor I'd seen a few times. He was carrying a plastic bag from a dry cleaners. Through the transparent wrapping, I saw a hanger with a green sweater attached.

I swallowed hard. Had Stan already destroyed the evidence I needed to put him at the scene of the latest fire?

"Nice to see you, Dr. Lamerino," Albert said in Italian-flavored English.

"You look busy," I said. "Doing errands for Dr. Nolan?"

"Yes. His sweater. He let me borrow it last week when I was sick and had the chills. I have it cleaned for him and now I return it. He's a nice man, no?"

"He's a very nice man," I said.

As relieved as I was that the fluorine team leader was probably not an arsonist, I was aware of the huge setback in solving the case.

I turned and headed back to the conference room, peering into cubicles as I walked. Only the leader of each group in the department had an office; the others worked in cubicles, open to the world.

I came to Carson's cubicle and stopped short. I knew of his passion for the early days of atomic energy, but I'd never seen the array of photographs in his workspace.

Many of the shots were familiar from my own passion, reading science history and biographies. Carson's collection included a sketch of the pile at the University of Chicago, where sustainable nuclear fission was born; a startling black and white image of Little Boy; a fiery mushroom cloud.

Most striking was a series of time-lapse images of test houses at the Nevada Proving Ground. Several operations during the era of above-ground testing consisted of building houses at different distances from ground zero and blowing them up to test their responses. The set of pictures on Carson's wall showed six shots of one house, from standing upright to collapsing in a surge of flames, in less than three seconds.

I felt a shiver as it dawned on me how Carson Little's hobby was woven into his approach to his research.

I walked back toward our meeting room knowing all I needed to know about the fires.

#

Matt and the fluorine team seemed to have taken a break at the same time that I did. I wondered if Teresa had looked for me in the women's room.

Now Matt was ready to resume. He pulled four photos from a folder and placed one in front of each chemist. He folded his hands and watched their expressions, like a macabre Nevada blackjack dealer: Hit or no hit?

Not only the chemists gasped at the sight of the charred body, face down, surrounded by a thick layer of debris. Up to now, I'd seen only the cleaned up image of her tattoo. I took only a quick look, making out a human form that was as black as carbon and so thin in places that I knew it could be pulled apart with very little force. I was grateful that I hadn't eaten yet.

"Is this the woman who died in the fire?" Peter asked.

"Not in the fire," Matt said. "Someone murdered her first."

Teresa shivered. "Why are you showing us these? Are we supposed to recognize her?"

I knew better. Matt was trying to shake loose a telltale reaction—a show of remorse, a slip of the tongue, an uncontainable need to confess.

No such thing happened, however. Instead, everyone looked ill; they drew back from the table and now all arms were folded across chests.

"Can you tell me a little about your work here?" Matt asked. He smiled and added, "In layman's terms, please."

Teresa volunteered. "Sure, I'll explain what we do. We're investigating various flame retardant coatings."

"Coatings for … ?" Matt asked.

"Anything," Carson said. "Once we figure out the process, we'll be able to use the coating for leather, glass, ceramic, plastic, wood … you name it."

I slipped Matt a hastily written note. He nodded and asked the group, "Do you have a testing facility here?"

"Sure do," Peter said. "We have all the standard stuff."

It was time to make my move. "But there's nothing like testing in the laboratory of real life, is there?" I asked. "It reminds me of the model town built at the Nevada Proving Grounds in the fifties." I turned to Matt, as the one who might need to be informed. "The government built houses of every kind of material, furnished them, and then blew them up and studied the results."

"Is that what you're doing?" Matt asked, looking from one chemist to the other.

Stan stood up, kicking his chair behind him. "Absolutely not," he said. "Is that why you're really here? To accuse us of setting the fires in town?"

"Just so we can do research on the ashes?" Teresa gave me a look that was part sad, part disappointed, mostly angry.

"It beats your plan, which is to wait around forever," Carson blurted. "You guys may have all the time in the world, but that's not what I signed up for." He unleashed his frustration in a loud blast.

The other three chemists looked at Carson in disbelief.

"Carson? You did this?" Teresa asked. Her face had fallen, making her seem almost as old as Stan.

"I'd do it again," Carson said. "Except for Danielle." He bit his lip and choked back tears. "She shouldn't have threatened me."

Peter put his head in his hands; Stan looked up at the ceiling, an uncomprehending look on his face.

"You killed Danielle?" Teresa's voice was low and menacing.

"It was an accident. She wanted to stop the project."

"What project are you talking about?" Teresa asked, this time nearly screaming.

"'Big Boy.' We called it Big Boy. Danielle was fine with it for a while, but she didn't want to use the nursing home. She came down there to stop me. We fought and I pushed her away." Carson's voice grew more and more shaky. "She fell … and … I … she hit her head."

"And you left her there?" Teresa had assumed Matt's role of interrogator. I was sure that was fine with him.

Carson threw up his hands. "I had to get out of there. The fire was coming at me. I couldn't help her. I knew she was dead."

Stan and Peter, who'd remained silent through Carson's confession, now stood together and, as if they'd planned it, lunged toward Carson with faces and arms ready for battle.

Matt jumped up, handcuffs at the ready.

Carson continued to babble through the four-man struggle. "I couldn't breathe. I panicked."

I might have felt sympathy for Carson, except for his last words: "And it was too late to get any data, anyway."

I buried my head in my hands and resigned myself—a scientist had gone bad.

#

A lot had happened between two Sunday brunches at the Galiganis'.

"It was all there in the emails," Matt told us during the omelet course. We listened attentively as he recounted how Carson had talked Danielle into helping with Big Boy, convincing her that it would be good for the environment in the long run. He'd assured her that no one would be hurt.

I swallowed hard at the outcome: only Danielle ended up being hurt.

"It was a different kind of motive for arson. We've got to give him that," Frank said. "Nothing ordinary, like vandalism, or insurance scamming, or a guy getting his kicks from seeing the flames."

"Or someone making a political statement, like a terrorist," Rose said.

"In a way it was a statement," I said. "About how researchers have to struggle for funding." I put my hand up in a STOP gesture to stem any backlash, and to protect my right to a cannoli. "Not that I'm excusing Carson or Danielle," I said. "Not a bit." I looked at my husband. "I'm a big fan of law and order."

"Wonderful news," Rose said. "Now let's plan that anniversary party."

"I won't stall anymore, I promise. But I have just one favor to ask."

"Anything, as long as we can set a date," Rose said.

I smiled a thank you at my best friend. "No candles, please."

THE END

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The Periodic Table and Seeing Ghosts by Karen Condon- written version

                                                         The Periodic Table

 
“Don’t you have anything better to do?” said my roommate.  I was at the kitchen table studying the Periodic Table of Elements.  The Periodic Table painted on my bedroom ceiling had kept me awake seven nights.  The guy living in the room before me had left it.  I didn’t know his name.  I thought if I did know it I might get some closure.
Mitch scratched his abdomen.  Thoroughly.  I thought how more things should be arranged in tables, with neat separations between night and day, childhood and adulthood, one person and the next.  But even the elements don’t stay in their boxes.  They react, form compounds, create and break bonds, release heat, transfer energy.  Restless as people, relentlessly seeking both equilibrium and upset, draining one of sleep.
From a textbook I had photocopied a list of the symbols and names of the 104 elements.  My thought was if I memorized them I would get some closure and some sleep, because the Table is all about closure and nomenclature and rest.
Mitch turned his back. I’d known him for two days.  Already I knew the three aspects of his character that mattered:
1)      Bluntness;
2)      Uncleanliness;
3)  A suburban-Aryan-golden-boy style beauty.
“I’m a chem major,” I said.
“You have the Norton’s Anthology of English Literature on the coffee table.”
“I’m switching.”
“Shouldn’t you be reading Beowulf or Catcher in the Rye?”
“I have.”
He took a skillet out of the fridge, sniffed it, slammed it on the stove.
“You’re not a clean man, Mitch.”
“I’ve got my priorities straight is why.”
Priorities.  Boron.  Radon.  Chlorine.  Fluorine.
I preferred the ine to the on elements.  The ilium ones weren’t bad either.
“Want some eggs?”
“No, thanks.”
“You gotta eat.”
“I did.”
“Your cupboards are empty.”
He turned back to the stove as the skillet began to smoke.
“I ate it all.”
“All I can say is,” he said.  But instead of saying all he could say he cracked three eggs into the skillet.
“Zirconium, zinc, yttrium, ytterbium, xenon,” I recited.
“Damn straight,” he said.
He left for work still licking his fingers.  I listened to his footsteps as he descended the fire escape, to the crunch of driveway gravel under his bike tires.  I opened one of my cupboards to look for something to eat.  I had:
1) a package of Ramen noodles; and
2) an unopened jar of peanut butter.
I leaned over the Periodic Table, dipping chunks of noodles in peanut butter and eating them.  The words and abbreviations shied away so I opened the textbook, which started with history.  It went:  
1)  Democritus names his indivisible particles atomos;
2) Plato and Aristotle protest; Democritus sticks to his guns;
4) Joseph Proust thinks up the law of definite proportions: compounds always have the same kind of elements stuck onto each other, in the same numbers;
5) Dalton comes up with the law of multiple proportions and, my favorite, the law of conservation of mass: matter can’t be created or destroyed.
6)  J.J. Thompson invents the cathode ray tube;
7)  R.A. Millikan figures out the charge of an electron;
8)  Rontgen, Becquerel, Curie, something-something-something, alpha, beta, gamma rays;
9)  Rutherford and his cohorts frolic around the nucleus;
10)  Their cover blown, protons, neutrons, and electrons surrender to science and chemistry is ours.

I got up, wandered the apartment, peered into the other bedrooms.  I turned the television on and instantly was mesmerized by Judge Joe Brown lambasting a teenager who’d kicked in his neighbor’s car door.  This ain’t no way to conduct yourself as a young gentleman, hear?
I nodded.
Awaiting the verdict during a commercial, I examined the ceiling.  It had been plastered over in random, endearing shapes.  My eyes wouldn’t stop following them.  Then my neck started to hurt so I looked up.  Judge Joe Brown had come to a close and soap operas had begun.  I muted the sound.  The actors emoted into each other’s faces, telephone receivers, thin air, over gravestones.  A blond couple kissed athletically.   A woman in a turquoise pantsuit poured herself a drink from a crystal flask and paced her living room.  A gloomy man pensively fondled a revolver; he had a plan.
I returned to the kitchen.  It was 2:30.  Hours had passed like water.  I opened The Story of Chemistry.
I had just arrived at an explanation of how the Periodic Table is organized when Mitch returned from work.
“You’re still on that, man?”
“You appear to have gotten some more sun today, lifeguard man,” I observed.
“Six fifty an hour I better get something out of it.”
He sat down across from me and slid the textbook over to his side.
“You even talk like an English major,” he said.
He shut the book.
“You kill me,” he said.  “I need a shower.”
I felt so lonely.  I followed him and stood outside the bathroom door.
“When are the other guys coming?” I called.
“I don’t know, sometime.”
“What are their names, by the way?”
He didn’t seem to mind me standing there talking.
“Bryan with a y, and Brian with an i.”
“How do you tell them apart?”
Mitch laughed.  I jumped a little; I’d almost nodded off.
“You kill me. Their names are the same.  They’re different guys.”
“They should have different names,” I slurred.  I slid along the wall to my room,  tripped over the rug and fell onto my futon mattress.
“Rutherfordium,” I mumbled.  “Einsteinium.  Curium.  Mendelevium.”

Each of these elements, I knew, is a unique combination of different kinds of molecules, each with a different mass and size.  They were never created and will never be destroyed.  Mass must be conserved.  Nothing is ever lost.
I awoke completely contained in night.  I strained to see the ceiling.  My eyes rolled playfully around.  Where was I?  When a rhythmic thumping began in the adjacent room I recalled Mitch’s flawless golden forearm and remembered: I was at 241 Main Street, between the halfway house and the athletic supply store.  My man-pretty roommate was having sex in the next room.
The Table lurked on the ceiling above my bed.  I imagined it dropping on me like a net, the letters of the elements creeping over me in a blind panic.
Moving my futon in the dark was not as difficult as one might think.  My only other furniture is a dresser and some bookshelves.  I got down on my knees and plowed the mattress across the floor until it met resistance.  Then I crawled back on and slept.
Morning sun from the window illuminated my feet.  On the ceiling was a single crack, shaped like a coast.  I traced it with my eyes.  That was something I could memorize no problem.
There was a clang in the kitchen.  I listened for girl-sounds but heard none.    
“Hey,” Mitch said as I shuffled in.
“Hey.”
He rattled the skillet against the burner and swore.
“Long night?” I said.
He switched off the burner and we sat down at the table.   
“I brought home this girl.”
I nodded.   Everything was so simple.  It was morning.  I was awake. My pretty roommate was talking about a girl.  So simple and so pure.  Mitch looked me over.
“What, did you sleep last night, or some such shit?”
“I moved my bed.  What’s the girl’s name?”
“I don’t know.  I met her at the pool.  She looks like a fuckin’ Coppertone ad.  I got no sleep.”
“Maybe her name’s Coppertone.”
“I didn’t sleep for two seconds all night.”
He flipped open The Story of Chemistry, flipped it closed, and stood up abruptly.
“I’m late,” Mitch said.  “You’re gonna have to keep her company.”
“Okay.”
“Will you do that for me, man?”   
“I’ll make her breakfast.”
I realized he’d probably never had insomnia before.  He needed a crash course in sleepless living.  I stood up and put an arm around his shoulders, guiding him to the door.
“Drink some coffee,” I advised him.  “Do everything more carefully than usual.  Eat.  Say very little.  Simplify, simplify, simplify.”
“Okay,” he said.  He stepped out onto the fire escape.  His hair was a ragged halo in the morning sun.
“I’ll take care of Coppertone,” I called.
He stopped at the first landing and looked up at me with the insomniac’s exaggerated earnestness.  Then he blinked and disappeared down the next flight of stairs.
I went back inside, sat down at the table, and opened The Story of Chemistry.  It doesn’t have a linear plot, I thought, glancing affectionately over the Table.  It had a definite though irregular shape, and an internal order that I’d been on the brink of learning the previous afternoon.  I had to give the Table credit for trying to be symmetrical and predictable.  It was like the face of an insomniac, placidly concealing internal ruptures, desperate transfers of energy, broken bonds, on its pale surface expressing nothing beyond its own opaque nomenclature.
My stomach gurgled.  I thought I must be hungrier than I’d ever been.
Sitting on the bottom shelf of the fridge I found Mitch’s skillet, in it several broken pieces of bacon half-submerged in congealed grease.  I scraped it out into the trash.   
Fifteen minutes later, the kitchen was a merry chaos of sound:  sizzling bacon and eggs, the bottoms of my bare feet shuffling busily on the linoleum, the breathless bubbling of the coffee maker.  I was singing what I could recall of the Who’s “Pinball Wizard.”   I heaped food onto two plates and carried them to the table.  I sat and was silent a moment, as if praying.  Beyond the ticking of the stove element, my breathing, and the morning commuters’ cars dragging themselves up the hill and into town, the apartment was still. I hadn’t realized how quiet it was here.  You could think in this kind of quiet.  I decided to eat my breakfast and let myself think instead of studying The Story of Chemistry.  Things occurred to me, lazily: characters from books I’d read, scraps of poems, how my father used to pace restlessly around his office, smoking a cigarette without taking it out of his mouth, talking to me with his eyes closed.          When I’d cleared my plate I turned to Coppertone’s.  I was still hungry.  I decided to go check up on her, and, if she was still asleep, eat hers too.
I nudged the door to Mitch’s room open with my toe.  On a single white pillow lay a slender ivory forearm, underside up, fingers curled delicately.  Mitch had brought an arm home last night.  He’d met an arm at the pool, and seduced it, and now it was asleep on his pillow.  I sang softly as I shuffled back to the kitchen:  That deaf dumb blind kid sure plays a mean pinball.
I ate the arm’s breakfast fast, then went out on the landing, stood for a moment in the glaring sun, and started down the stairs.  I could go down to the town pool where Mitch worked.  Instead, I got on my bike and headed for the pond. The pond is deep and spring-fed.  Trees gather like patient spectators on the shore.   
I swam out into the middle and floated on my back.  My breath was loud in my ears.  Swallows flew back and forth overhead, erasing something.
I arrived home at sunset.  As I was locking my bike, I heard voices next door at the halfway house.  Two people were sitting across from each other at a picnic table.  One sat back with his head tilted, his hand cradling one side of his face.  The other, whose back was to me, sat hunched over the table, rocking and leaning on his elbows. As I reached the first landing of the fire escape, I heard laughter from above.
“I’m okay, you’re okay!” someone called.
The therapist and his client and I looked up at the third floor landing:  two more bronze towheads – Bryan and Brian – were leaning on the railing and laughing.  When I reached the top, they’d gone into the kitchen, leaving the door open, and Mitch was angrily dragging his skillet over the stove.
“I’m serious, man,” he said, whipping around, wielding the skillet.  “One:  this skillet is cast iron, morons, you don’t just wash it, understand, idiots?  Two:  don’t fuck with the people at the halfway house.  Go outside and, fuckin’, torture bugs instead.”
I was pleased.  Mitch was feeling the truth-telling effects of insomnia.
Bryan and Brian glanced at each other and rolled their eyes.
“Psychopath,” one of them mouthed to the other.
“Hey,” said one.  “I heard Dale Earnhardt Junior crashed his Corvette at NASCAR yesterday.”  They went into the living room where they took over the sofa and the television, surfing the channels, searching for the explosive crash.
“Earnhardt escaped, miraculously, with only minor burns,” exclaimed the newscaster.  “How is that possible, Steve?”
“I’m the one who washed your skillet,” I told Mitch.
He was leaning over the sink, scrubbing the skillet.
“Yeah, I figured.  But they’re idiots.  I’ll just scrape the rust off and oil it down.”
“Is Coppertone still here?”
“Nope.”
He let the skillet drop with a clang in the sink and turned around.
“You believe those shitheads, man?” he said to me.  He had dark wings under his puffy eyes.
“Yeah,” I agreed.
“They’re here, what, fifteen minutes, and they’re all in my face.”
“I know.”
“Shit.”
I nodded, waited a beat.  Then I said:
“But at least Dale Earnhardt Junior escaped with only minor burns.”
He laughed and shuffled over to the table.
“Listen, let me cook you something to eat,” I suggested.  “Then you can help me finish memorizing the Periodic Table of Elements.  That’ll put you right to sleep.”
He opened The Story of Chemistry.
“Don’t you have anything better to do, man?” he murmured, his eyes running over the table as he saw it, really saw it, for the first time.
I smiled nostalgically.  Things had come full circle.  Now we would both sleep through the night.


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                                                                                             SEEING GHOSTS

I  was standing in the doorway between living room and foyer, waiting for the commercial so I could tell my husband about the girl who’d died in our house.  The neighbor had been out in the yard when I was on my way out for my doctor’s appointment, and she’d told me.  We had not spoken to those neighbors since we’d moved in a month before, but that day she decided she felt like coming over holding her watering can and introducing herself and telling me what she knew about this dead girl.  The only things we know about these neighbors are things we can see:  that they have a pool that they never use, an ugly, collapsing carport, a daughter with a ne’er do well boyfriend who honks his horn and waits in the car when he comes to take her out.  They still haven’t introduced themselves or even really looked at us, though they do seem to sense our presence.
That day’s conversation about the dead girl was our first contact, actually, with any of our neighbors.  I admit I was interested in what she told me.  Everyone’s interested in other people’s deaths.  Plus it seemed like something we ought to know about our new house, to help explain apparitions and disembodied voices.  Not that there had been any, at that point, or that either of us believed in such things.
I watched him watch a pair of animated gladiators spar on a tilted black plane.  The object of the game was to knock your opponent into oblivion. There was nothing else in their world.  Just the two of them, the black plane, and whoever had put them there.  Soon there would only be one of them left.  Where could it go from there?
To a commercial, that’s where.  A towheaded boy in a soccer uniform climbed into a minivan through a side door, followed by a smiling golden retriever.    From the driver’s seat, his mother watched him slyly, teeth gleaming.
“Someone died in this house,” I said.
 “Yeah?  Who?”
“A girl with cancer,” I said.  “Her room is the one up in the attic.”
“How do you know?”
“The neighbor told me.  She was out back today and she told me.”
 “That’s sad.”
I wondered if he meant it was sad that my neighbor and I had been out back talking about a girl who’d died, or that the girl had died, or both.
“Was she friendly?”
It took me a second to realize he meant the neighbor and not the dead girl.
“No.”
“What was she like, then?”
I thought about what she’d been like but drew a blank.  I remembered she had very small, very clean hands, and that her watering can was empty, and that she kept her empty hand clenched in a tiny fist while we talked.  No, she hadn’t been friendly.  She’d been dutiful, afraid, and obviously relieved when the conversation was over.
 “Informative,” I said, looking from him to the TV screen, where a young blonde woman was examining the reflection of her teeth in the bathroom mirror, turning her head from side to side.  She tilted her head and pouted fetchingly.  I ran my tongue over my own teeth.  I thought, they aren’t clean enough, they aren’t white enough.  I should have taken better care of them.
“I wonder if she left a ghost,” he said, twirling the remote.
“She didn’t say.  I suppose if she knew there was a ghost she would have told me.”
“Maybe she thought you don’t believe in ghosts.”
“But even if she did think that, if she thought she’d seen the ghost of the girl, you’d think she’d have told me about it.  To her it would have been reality.”
Actually, I thought, once you know about someone who’s died, it’s hard not to believe in their ghost, even if you never see it.  I thought this one would look more ordinary than you’d expect:  just a girl with nothing to do.
The show came back on.  He un-muted the sound and got that look on his face.  Listening time was over, but I’d talk to myself if I had to.
“I don’t really get why she chose today to come out and tell me,” I said.  “She didn’t seem all that pleased to meet me.  She didn’t invite us for drinks or give me a Bundt cake or anything.”
The gladiators stood at opposite ends of the black plane, their sabers at their sides, apparently waiting for orders.  I wanted him to stop watching.  I was used to wanting him to stop watching television, but this was different.
“What if you saw a ghost?” I said.  “Would you be scared?”
“Nope.”
“Say it’s three in the morning, and you wake up because I’m snoring and you have to go to the bathroom.  So you go out in the hall, and as you turn on the hall light, you feel something brush against the back of your hand.  And there in front of you is the ghost of the girl.  Then would you be scared?”
“Why do you want me to be scared?”
“I don’t,” I said.
The gladiators circled silently, poised to spring.  I touched the lump on my right breast with the pads of my fingers.  It was hard and well-formed, like a pearl.
“I’m going to bed.”
I climbed the dark staircase.  We hadn’t yet gotten around to installing light-switches for the stairs and upstairs hall.  We still haven’t.  I am afraid of the dark.  Every night I stand at the top of the stairs, breathless, spine tingling, feeling around in a panic for the light-pull.  I never find it right away.
Something soft brushed the back of my hand.  I brought my arms down to my sides and stood there stiffly.  Now all I could do was wait for what was to come next.  The ghost had found me.  It knew I believed in it now. 
 
 



    

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